Dawn

I feel encouraged a lot today.

Morning today was started with a really great worship!
I was totally moved and relaxed, free to worship God alone with all of my mind without thinking what others will think about me. He brought me through all of it, all the pains, all the humiliation. I know I will go through this one too, that is being self-conscious while worshipping. Well, it seems like its something small, but I know that it is really bad to be scared to worship for just Him alone especially in front of family members.
God is just gentle enough to help me overcome this matter and also giving me opportunities to overcome it with some sort of a guidance/help. I'm deeply grateful and happy!=D

After service, went to pastor's house for leader's cell. That was my first time attending it. I feel really encouraged and relieved in a way to me to know that the leaders and also Pastor Calvin are also aware of the condition of our youth nowadays and are trying to figure out a way to overcome it. I just feel there is a light shining on my youth and hope to be united together and to be more open towards each other. Well, in the first place, leaders are the ones to start that of course and to set an example. First thing first, more effort must be put on carecell and I need to focus!=).
I hope that we will be able to move on to the next level and not to stay too comfortable at the position we are having now! That'll make us to slack off.

Today is really a day to be remembered and also a day to be marked as the starting of all the changes that are going to happen in my youth!
I'm excited!

I'm tagged!

Here being tagged by Xin Yan, so fulfilling the task I'm given..haha!=P


1. At what age do you wish to be married?

maybe around 29-30?lol..i'll never know..maybe i won't be marrying also..

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you'd take and why?

blog buddies eh?maybe eunice-her positive thinking, ng-her calmness and chai-her wittiness(in a good way k chai..haha!)..and can i add one more??haha..maybe Miss Cheryl also..lol!i guess she'll know what to do best?haha..*don''t laugh, ng!*

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

The land of cows ----New Zealand!have always wanted to go there..

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

to have a really intimate relationship with God..

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?

yes, i can!it'll be challenging..haha..

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?

my passion

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

go travelling!

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

it depends.. =)

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

xinyan
- fun
- truthful!
- thoughtful!!
*hope to know you more!;)*

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

trustworthy, dependable, caring, understanding, romantic, adventurous, hardworking, has his own passion, knows how to play at least one musical instrument!=P

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?

i shall not list down because am learning to accept and love people from different personalities to different backgrounds!

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?

i will not because all of the falls in my past help me to learn more things about life and grow closer to Him.

13. Can you tell what's your future going to look like ?

*shrug*. Have to ask for guidance that one.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

God, family, friends, my interests..*haha..maybe i should change the question to 'things'!*=P

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?

no, am not..haha..but doesn't mean I don't like shopping!

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

To be more easy-going and open-minded in some areas..

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?

people i'm comfortable with..

18. What's your weakest point?

to be sensitive in the things that are NOT supposed to AND to NOT be sensitive in the things that AM supposed to!lol!i know thats weird!

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?

Easy to accept new things..?or maybe the ability to forget the things i am stressed in!!haha!!

20.once again .. how do u spell nucleus ?..

you don't know? you just typed it out!


I'm putting the tag onnnnn....


Chai!

Charlene

Ng?maybe this is a good way to revive your blog..haha

eunice? don't know whether you'll have the time ornot..

Breathing

God does not give patience
He gives opportunity for patience!

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When you let God in, when you breathe, what happens is you become aware of all the things you need to leave behind, everything you need to let go of."

-Rob Bell (from the DVDS "Breathe" and "Today")


I'm still learning to really let go of some things, some bad things which I had been attached to very tightly and long until its a hard thing to let go.
A large stone deep down in my heart that had caused many calluses and scar to throw away.
I'm so glad that I'm not alone in this walk because I know I can't do it alone without God!
I need His courage and His grace!!

Oh My!

Just finish naming my new-born baby hamster, I have yet to name another animal!

Which is unbelievable!

I can only describe it as a WOW! lol!

Previously, I had wished to have dogs, hamsters, guinea pigs, rabbits, a parrot and a monkey!
Now, I have already a dog and three hamsters.
Yet, this morning, I had to tick off again one of the names I had written down in that list of animals I want!

UNbelievable!

I had never thought that I can actually own that animal as a pet because I know mum wouldn't buy it!


The only way to own that animal is only when the animal comes to my house itself!

.....which it almost impossible!



and YET!















IT HAPPENED!!





I'm now the master of a PARROT!!*faint in disbelief*



Isn't it beautiful? I'm yet to identify it as a male or female though I assume it as a female after seeing some eyelashes around its eyes. But do birds have eyelashes? O.O

I just love its green and blue feathers which mix together to become turquoise!

Im yet to find out what breed is this. I think this parrot is pretty common though.

Anyway, that parrot marks today as the third month I've shifted here!




just unbelievable to me!
i think my house will be turning into a zoo soon..><













P/S :I think I have better cancel off the wish to have a monkey in case it happen again!Mind you, there are more than 10 monkeys staying in front of my house!*><

The Birth!

My hamster gave birth to her first four babies in just two months yesterday!


That's just TOO fast!
means in one year, I'll have 24 new hamsters!!*horrified face*


I had seen Touiee's body bigger like usual but didn't suspect anything about it.
I just thought it had eaten a lot and grew fatter thats all.
I was in school when Touiee and Rata became parents.
According to mum, when kakak was transferring the hamsters to their "swimming pool", Touiee was like moving around in pain.
Out of a sudden, there popped a head!
A lot of blood was there and it was really disgusting!*i wonder how it'd looked like!*


[Squirming around like worms. Kinda cute tho =) ]

As this is the first time we rear hamsters, my mum put all the hamsters into the cage.
We didn't know that we should separate the male hamster from his kids!
So, when mum saw Rata biting one of the baby hamsters, she thought that he was merely carrying it up like how a father should do! LOL


But ended up like this!



No, not clear enough! Maybe....









THIS!!


[ It looks like a finger that is being chopped off! I can actually see its ribs, lungs and heart!]


This poor baby hamster after being eaten by his own dad, its half body was again being entered to another mouth.

Not Rata's , but HATTA's!


Mum screamed when she found out the body was lost.
Hatta was shocked by her scream and so teraccidentally opened her mouth and vomit out the body!lol!


Poor thing.....







[ Feeding Touiee with a nut topped with wasabi! Funny reaction she gave! LOL!]






[ The culprit hiding in the jail!]



[ Dangerous pose. well, she is always like that!]



Anyway, i am thinking the names for the three newborn babies.

Any suggestion? =)

Feather

Throwing up the feather and letting it blown by the wind. The pure white feather flew with each of its melody. A melody so serene yet rich with meanings. It touches the heart of the listener deeply.
The sound of the harp it dances along as if every note brings joy to the feather alone. Unexplainable yet it dances so gracefully. Born it is till it gives the heart a lift.

A lift so high

The feather is free.




Free...

Take off the slippers!!

When you are forgotten, neglected, or purposely set at naught, and you don't sting or hurt with the oversight, but your heart is happy being counted worthy to suffer for Christ;

That is dying to self.

When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed, your advice disregarded, your opinion ridiculed, and you refuse to let anger rise in your heart or even defend yourself, but take it all in patient, loving silence;

That is dying to self.

When you lovingly and patiently bear any disorder, any irregularity, any annoyance; when you can stand face to face with waste, folly, extravagance, spiritual insensibility, and endure it as Jesus did;

That is dying to self.

When you are content with any food, and offering, any raiment, any climate, any society, any solitude, any interruption by the will of God;

That is dying to self.

When you never care to refer to yourself in conversation or record your own good works or itch after commendation, when you can truly love to be unknown;

That is dying to self.

When you can see your brother prosper and have his needs met, and can honestly rejoice with him in spirit and feel no envy, nor question God, while your own needs are far greater and you are in desperate circumstances;

That is dying to self.

When you can receive correction and reproof from one of less stature than yourself and can humbly submit, inwardly as well as outwardly, finding no rebellion or resentment rising up within your heart;

That is dying to self.


[Quoted from www.allaboutfollowingjesus.com]



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There are times when we may think that we had already surrendered everything of us to God but actually we are not really giving everything but just a quarter of us.
We tend to think we had already but still we are taking a great effort not to spill everything of us to Him and are afraid not to be in control of our lives either consciously or unconsciously.=S
God will not be able to work fully in our life if we just place a little of us unto Him.
Its like you either choose to sit on the roller coaster or to not sit.
You can't be putting half of your body in it right!=)


Surrendering to Him might seem a bit too "unsafe" and risky for you, but He had already promised if you surrender to Him, He'll guide you in your walk much more better than you yourselves because He know the plans He have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future!
He knows EXACTLY what we need!




So lets RELAX, accept the exciting ride He offer us and have faith in Him! cheers!=D

Totally amazing!

i feel SO human now!
Standing here and being struck by what i can't do without the grace of God.

D.u.m.b.f.o.u.n.d.i.n.g. i am!!
Haha

=)

Haha! I just find this kinda cute!

p/s: i SOOOOOO SOOOOOO SOOOOOO miiiiiiiisssss my PIANO that I promise NEVER to abandon it anymore!!!!! I can't believe it has almost been three months i didn't touch it!*sobsob*='(

In the wide

He said even a small detail of a picture has to be taken care of.
He related that to God who takes care of the small little dot(us) in a really big picture(universe).
He said the outcome of a blank piece of paper is all depend on us who are the painter.
He said its really important to read biographies of other artists.
He said we have to write more poems because its the best way to balance our left brain and right brain.
He said its crucial for us to think and observe more of the things around us.
He called us not to be a shallow-minded person but a person who thinks in a wider view.
He called us to gain more knowledge.
He said drawing is not the only art and he called us to enjoy other arts in this world too.
He said when he was 15 years old, he had allowed his brain to wonder past the more complicated and crucial thing in our life.
Then, he trusts in Jesus Christ.
He does not want us to be trapped in the small art classroom but to go out and see more things so he has organized a lot of outings.
He gives encouragement to the needy.
He said its important to be sensitive to arts.
He said its also important to be able to express yourself out.
Its impossible to create a new artwork if we can't express ourselves.

And he said we have to be brave to touch the tip of the brush that is in our hands to that blank piece of paper!


I wrote down some of the things he said here so that I won't forget what he said.


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When I'm in a rough sea and thinks everything is impossible and hopeless, He'll always be there and make everything possible. When He is there, there is hope!

Changing of the wind

Hey! Today had been a little hectic for me! Still in my opinion, I think its getting towards the better change! I am glad. :)
Holiday has just started again and I'm quite glad to take a short break from school even though there will still be choir. I believe choir is beginning to see some light. Thanks to Yvonne, we have hope back again! :))
Well, in this short holiday, Pn Norlia seems to not let us go for a bit. Homeworks are flooding in more than ever not only in F5 but also in the other forms. Ms Lee said maybe its because the influence from other schools which are doing the exact thing too.*shrug* I just hope they will realize that we need the time to study and do revision.
Lost my Chemistry text book and my exercise. I don't know how it happened. At first, I didn't want to accept the fact that its lost but in the end I have to admit that it had been stolen. ='(.
Gotta be careful next time.


Here is my list-to-do things during the holiday!
- catch up with so left behind studies *hope i can!:(*
- choir
- piano!!!
- guitar
- learn how to use Photoshop (i need the patience!)
- practise pingpong (competition is coming! *freaking out*)
- movie marathon! (if i have the time!)
- find for nice restaurants
- spend more time with family
- add more cement in my foundation

So much to do but still its just a one week holiday!

I am shaken




TRULY!!


MADLY!!


DEEPLY!!



The brain cell in me is dead!!


Both my hands are full of sweat!!


My hair is standing on its end!!



Permanent damage!!






I shall never ever touch 30 Days of Night again!


Never ever!!



*slam door shut*






P/S: Sorry for this post. I was just unable to control myself due to the gruesome images! =S . Will update next time!

Artsie!

Yesterday was a 29th February.
Although it seems like some other days, this particular day will only come back after four years.
On that day, I learnt that art is in everything.
Instead, art IS everything.
Art of war, art of study, art of driving, art of food, art of anything at all!
Everyone in this world will surely have their own artistic stuff in them.
So, there is no reason to say "I don't have a drop of arts in me"..=)
Well, anyway, enjoyed the class I had yesterday.
Mr Liew is really a fun and passionate guy too.
Learnt a lot of things from him!
I'm really glad that God gave me such a great teacher!=D




Anyway, today had a great time enjoying crabs in a famous crab restaurant in Puchong.
They are really tasty!
Comes in different flavour and all AND that is called arts!Haha!
Here's the pictures I took of the dish!

Crabs with superb yummilicious cheeesse!

Crabs cooked with salted-egg except they are not that salty. Just alright.




Simply lips-smacking crabs and taufu!

Are you drooling now?=P