Majesty Here I Am

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so I'm free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I stand humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice



This song really speaks right through in my heart.
He still choose to forgive so that we can be able to forgive and to be freed from this un-forgiveness.
Yeah, it is true that forgiving someone doesn't mean that they are right or wrong, it makes you free!
Its really totally impossible to forgive someone especially a person who had given you so much hatred and pain.

Really, without God's grace, we can't do it.

~Melancholy Melatonin~

Quote from EST text book "A person's sleep-wake cycle is a complex process that scientists have not fully understood. What is known, however, is that it is greatly influenced by a hormone called melatonin. Produced by the pea-size pineal gland in the brain, melatonin helps the body to regulate its sleep-wake cycle. A high level of melatonin tells the body that it is time to sleep, and a low level tells the body that it is time to wake up."


I guess the pea-size pineal gland in my brain has totally malfunctioned when it detects the aroma of exam papers. Deeply soaking in a large amount of this melatonin hormone, i really "cannot" explain why I couldn't concentrate on the exam paper!
Or maybe teachers had sprayed something on the exam papers which will activate the pea-size pineal gland in the brain to ensure us students had already taken a large dose of caffeine? Yeah!! It must be because I really couldn't explain why and i did not gulp a single drop of coffee!


Human's sleep-wake cycle is indeed complex! A person that has been sleeping for so long can still be sleepy during exam! I wonder what is happening to this particular complex process. Its no wonder scientists cannot explain totally how it works. Brains, ya know.=P

Anyway, the Chemistry exam today is by far the worst one of all. Paper 2 and 1 which i crapped and tembaked until my bullets all got daunty all the way till i was asleep. Imagine.. Here is a poem i would like to dedicate to my late Chemistry..

Chemistry, oh, chemistry,
Long jump with her close friend, biology,
Not wanting to be left without the logy,
So Physics follow along towards the lorry.

Carrying sulphur, chloride, mercury
Not forgetting this huge electrochemistry
The lorry swerves towards the loji
Pouring out all this jewelry

Chemistry cry and cry mightily
Until the Magnesium burns vigorously
Holding on to what is left innerly
So Mr.Zero will not slap her accidentally.


Okay, okay..i know this is lame!Haha!But really, now i would even be happy if my Chemistry will not have to meet Mr.Zero! I still remember the first and also last time i failed a subject. It was my Moral when i was in my Form 1. Just only managed to scrape 12 marks for it. I just hope that that will be the last time i fail my subject though i'm not so sure now.

Hope tomorrow i can find Physics 3 and 1 alive. Hope they did not follow the footsteps of all their little friends!

Physics, oh Physics..Spare me some velocities!


p/s : I think i will continue using back this old blog instead of the new one. I don't think I'll have the time to manage the other one and also thanks to all the warnings about xanga from someone, I'll just revert back to this old blog for less hassle..Hehe..

Till here and see you all again tomorrow.....that is if im still alive...

.i am going to break away from the internet world for 2 weeks.

.its just the urgency of it.

.not because i have to study or anything but it's just the urgency of the purpose.


so see you all after that period of time!

God bless!



Yours truly,
yeethong

†crumbs†

Hey, yesterday, 6 October was my birthday!
And i really enjoyed myself..
Thank you eeeeeeeeeveeeeeerrrrryyyone for ALL the wishes and present!
Thanks mum, dad, and bro for the slurpy cake and also the scrumptious meal!;)
I owe you all one..!=)

It has been another year..
and here i am officially sixteen..
I am deeply grateful for having everyone and also Jesus..
Although had been sitting on a reaaally rocky roller coaster throughout the year and also the past years, i am really grateful that He picked me up each time my roller coaster fell tooo way down till i couldn't breathe at all!
All the experiences i had with Him is indeed wonderful and i really thank Him for that..
Thanks for loving me, a person who undeserves SO much of Your love..

A new year is coming up for me!
I am excited for it because i know that this year will be a year full of surprises!
I am excited to see people(us) rise up and to be united from all churches..
Really looking forward to the Fusion camp this year..
I hope that after that camp, we will not fall back away but to step forward with selfless faith!
Let this camp not to be just a camp to have all the fun with games, musics etc, but to let it be a life-changing camp!=D
Let us to hold each other hands and fellowship together..

Reunite!


Don't give up in praying!Don't give up!

Eventhough it may seems useless and tend to get lazy repeating the same old unanswered prayer again and again..BUT..don't ever ever give up!

Lets have the faith like this Canaanite woman from Matthew 15.

She did not give up crying out for Jesus even though Jesus did not answer her at first.
She still continue and persistently called out to Him with faith!

Jesus actually has the right not to answer her you know, because He said He is just sent for the lost sheep of Israel.
However, He is great.
Because of her never endless faith, her daughter was healed.

So, here sometimes we prayed for something really long and that it seems like God is not answering, just continue to have the faith that He will.

And the next part here where this woman said,
"but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters' table."

She humbled herself as a dog which on that time, dog is something really low class.
She was so desperate to even see a "crumb" of His presence.
"Just a little bit..a little bit.."
Her faith is so great ..yet, she could have fallen away when Jesus did not answer her.
She humbled herself.

Well, she was very close but not that close enough.
So she continue to cry out.
At last, Jesus replied saying that
"Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted"!

When things just don't seem to work out anymore..
DOn't stop!
Don't stop in seeking Him first...


Believe that He will answer your humble prayers..
And also that He is currently painting a b..e...a...utiful picture on the other side..!=D

†study-not†

Warning : If you want to score the end-of-year exam with great flying colours, or even are enjoying the mood to study now, please do not read this post for this post might discourage u to flunk your exam together with the rest who had gotten my virus.


A "g...r....e.....at" start of the first day of exam today!


My eyes were barely opened throughout ALL the BM and BI exams moment!


I even felt lazy to answer the BM questions..-.-""..*that's SO not me during exam!=S*
And slept one hour during BI...

When i heard all the piercing screaming and shout of joy from all the form 3s, i so felt like jumping out from the exam room or being back again when i was in form 3..=S..


I know, just some dreams there when one's mind was feeling extremely sleepy with no reason.. Maybe it's the smell of the paper that made me sleepy?




Or maybe it's the scene where all heads were bow down towards the table while flying off their hands trying to answer the "sleeping pill" questions in time that made me so?

I can say that my plan to "confidently step into the examination class showing my big smile on my face" and "vomiting out all the informations onto the blank piece of paper coolly" will not be a success...

I had practically given up hope on this exam!
I don't even know what subject i should start to study because there are just too many to!
Well, i don't want to really give up yet but still i know it's almost near to the word "give up".. Even my mum is cool with it..haha


Anyway, today after school, suddenly this great thought to go MV and enjoy sprang out.
Not me, but its from mum!
So me, mum, bro and Ridun went there..
Watched a movie, bought a sneaker and some tees, ate Kim Gary's and loitered around the mall..



Ahh..what an enjoyment....




It just so seem like it IS already after exam!

†grateful†

At 6.55 am, i reached my class and i saw no one..
"Great..maybe i'll be the only one who came to school today..." *sigh and bewildered* Placed my bag, sat on my chair and looked around, preparing for my day...
Then, at 7.17am...
Still no one was in the class!
I was really bewildered...and a thought struck me..
"Hmph! i don't think Sarah and Jeeva will ponteng school! That's so not them!"
So i went for Sarah&Jeeva head hunt around the school..
And so, i saw a whole bunch (not that big lar..around 12) of 4 berlian standing near the pavillion...
Waiting to enter the class i entered earlier...!
Haha..so that's not really that bad afterall..=)



Anyway, as i came back and sit here at home after a party and tuition..
i wondered to myself...
What would i become if i don't have Him?
What will i be feeling if i don't know Him?
What will i be feeling if i block Him away from me?
What will i be feeling if i don't know His word?
Will i be lost? Will i be stomping on the ground letting all the frustration to go off? Will i be too overpowered by all the bad feelings until i will not know how to control it?
Will i be like others who had drown into the fire of cruelty and vapour of ungratefulness and never find themselves back?
Will i be pulling at my hair frustratingly letting off the feelings that were in me for long? Will i be tearing off my heart and destroy my life?





I don't know...but one thing i know is..
I will not be who i am today typing right here and right now..
Even though i know i am still in the process of being cut here and there...*grin*



i am just so extremely glad that i know Him and have Him in my life..
i will sing of your strength, in the morning i will sing of your love, for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble [Psalm 59:16]



Not because of who i am, but because of what You've done
Not because of what i've done, but because of who You are..
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
Wave tossed in the ocean,
Vapour in the wind,
Still you hear me when i'm calling
Lord You catch me when i'm falling
And You told me who i am
I am Yours...


i know i can always count on You! ;)

A little shout out here again!

im NEVER EVER gonna think of becoming a clerk or even someone who works in front of a computer!!

........phew....

thats better...

†ProMiSe!†

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"Promise will still be a promise!
So it must be fulfilled no matter what!"

Yes..yes..*heard it ringing in my head countless times*
You can do it!
4 more to go!!
You had done the first 3 in just 35 hours!
and you still left 5 hours to do the rest! o.OOOOO!!
Then you can only start preparing for exam....
So you still have time..
Yes..
time...


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Anyway, bad news come at times when you don't expect it..
So be ready and just trust in the Lord..
Trust that He has the best plan of all..
No matter what the outcome is..
He will take care of it..!=)

†Let it be~~†

Sitting down
With red blood shot eyes
surrounded by half baggy layer of black skin
In front of this computer
From morning till night
Doing not my revision
Doing not my reports
But this 'oh so heavenly' another person's stuffs..
i shall not reveal what it is
but its totally killing my time so effectively than Maple Story..

Phew..and the mood to study is quickly seeping away from my brain cells...
While exam is nicely creeping nearer and nearer like a shadow..
Even after all the nice reminders "study ar" from my friends,
i still remain steady and calm..o.O
Only..my unconsciousness is slowly nagging me to be at least feel the "last minute" feeling in me now..*its really the last minute now but still the feeling has not come yet!*

Well, in this exam, i think i'm gonna just "Ahh, let things be!" =)

Can't possibly force my brain in front of all those horrifying books..!