~Unspeakable Desire~

my new blog

2009-01-04T21:38:00.004+08:00

hey people!

i've migrated over to wordpress so im no longer threading my foot here in blogspot...maybe once a while only..

so do visit my new one ;)
cheers~

sparkling new blog

National A-Levels Mathematics marathon

2008-12-23T14:25:00.009+08:00

I went to HELP the last Saturday - 20 dec - together with Debbie and Joanne.

We took part as a team in this National A-Levels Mathematics Marathon for the hope of winning a scholarship out of this.
It was truly a brilliant experience, though we didn't win OF COURSE!!

The other students who took part there are all BRILLIANT KIDS who are BRILLIANT in MATHS!
at least those from chinese schools.

Debbie-maths questions
Me- Sudoku questions
Joanne - IQ questions

We were one of the earliest to reach there, or rather one of the latest to register after the deadline(thanks debbs!;) )
There were total 59 teams from all over malaysia.

Joanne
Debbie - not so nervous anymore
We were waiting for the finals, this was after our test, for the quiz!the finals
the left group win first-from chunglin(they cheated a few times, but well, they did great at the end)
second goes to the right
third the middle - chung hwa

they were simply amazing..

i came out from the hall actually feeling kinda dumb and noob in maths..haha!

all in all, truly a good experience..=)

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one day before the competition, stayed overnight in eunice's house, for the first time and also the last time..how sad huh? she'll be leaving soon! anyway, teman-ed her to buy all her stuffs in kajang town and MV. its truly a rush but quite enjoyable actually..basically i was her tour guide that day, pulling her away from the wrong direction! i suppose some girls DO have a good sense of direction..not only guys..hehehehehhee..
then, went to see the choir gigs!;)
they improved a lot!

till here then..guess i had updated quite a lot to last some days!=P

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

family stuffs - cake &christmas

2008-12-23T13:34:00.017+08:00

Me and my mum decided to mess around the kitchen last week for fun. Thus, we decided to bake a pineapple butter cake! It had been a long time since my last home-made cake-i think it was around august last year. Its quite an easy cake to bake actually.

the ingredient

tadaa!
though abit hangus on top due to the temperature, but after removing the black layer, its actually mouth-watering!
Easy huh?;)

Anyway, another small event to be remembered. Went out with Sandy the other day when i saw THIS!
i know, like what a big deal huh?
but its BIG to ME!haha!i just can't resist to buy this box and also..

THIS!
they are quite cheap you know.
At that time, i still didn't really have any idea on how i'm to hang this at my house because i didn't have a christmas tree!

Well, first choice - go back to my old house and chop down the BIG christmas tree that had been planted since i was about 5 years old. (not a really a good idea as the roots are pretty huge by now)
That leave the second choice, the last indeed-just hang them across my dining hall with a string or something.*i decided on this*

When i was taking my release-my-absolute-tiredness nap on sunday, my mum suddenly crept up to me. I was still blurring from the sleep when i heard the excitement in her voice.
So i woke up to see what she was excited of.
Lo and behold!
Guess what she and my dad bought??
Yes, i think you might guess correctly!

a WONDERFUL CHARMFUL BEAUTIFUL CHRISTMAS TREE!
*blink blink*

i never would have thought i'll get one!haha
i know i know..im making a mountain out of a mole hill it seems!
but hey!maybe not to you, it IS a mountain to me..to ME okay??*grin*
to own a christmas tree is sort of my childhood dream. i used to admire the christmas trees especially in the Home Alone movies...memories..hehe.
anyway, it was truly a sweet surprise!

He seems huge here!haha

Brother trying his best to hang the loose star on top
the angel

have a MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Undang test and house party

2008-12-23T10:49:00.022+08:00

I attended, passed my undang test, and attended my amali about two weeks back! Why am i putting this in my blog? Well, its absolutely something to be remembered of...at least to me.=)

me and vivem, a friend from yuhua whom i met there with mr leong
with Chee Hui on the right, another friend from the place

Courtesy from Mr Leong- belanja-ed us in mcD as a congratulation for passing the test!

Anyway, a few days before that, my family had our first house party. Had a great time and i hope others did too!

I like this picture
This too - btw, she was sick thus the face
The camp!supposed to be for the kids, but looks like kids these days are more attracted to ps2 ><""..well, someone did sleep there for a while tho..not kids..hehe
funny as ever yang

michelle, sara and samuel
sandy- she'll be leaving for salt lake city in january!
LOL

Karaoke and dancing place?
waiting for someone to perform..haha!-its the next day after the party anyway ;)my cousin sister(the girl in the store room)-i was looking at her for a long time, she just stood there without moving so i decided to take her pic..looks creeeeppyyy..haha

Just some of the pictures..can't upload all from the event!

Break Free Concert

2008-12-15T10:28:00.018+08:00

The concert was really an unexpected one! I never thought it would be so successful, unbelievable, and besides, there was so many who turned up! I still remember how Esther had sounded when there was just about 30+ people in the hall at 7pm. "YEETHONG!!THERE'S SO LITTLE PEOPLE!!!HOOOWWW???".

I was preparing hastily in the make-up room (i was late =P). When, it was 7.30pm, one of my eyes still had no eye-liner!( i missed the dance from Funky Fever!) But what choice did i have that time, the girl just simply drew one round around it, i ran to the hall where everyone was waiting for me. Everyone was smiling anxiously. I took a peek out the hall, and lo and behold, i saw what like a hall FULL of people! I was simple astounded and really thank God for such miracle!

I was still in a shock trance, when suddenly aunty Rachel spray one line of red dust/paint across my face! It was actually meant for my hair! The shouting game they were playing outside was almost finished, and it was about time for all of us to sing!

I quickly wiped away the one red line on my left cheek, hoping it wont be so obvious. There was no mirror around anyway. Haha. Then it was time. We went up to greet the multitude of people. I was very pleased to saw a few faces whom i thought would not come, and also i saw Maggie the new era guy. What a shock! =).

The worship singing was a great one, though halfway through the fast songs, i found my voice shaky and almost had no voice left. Guess i had shouted too much for the past days. Anyway, really enjoyed Alvin's worship-leading. He just simply trust in God the whole time during the worship leading. I still remember he once said to me, "You don't have to think of what you would do when you are on stage later, you just follow and trust on what the Spirit guides you at that time."Then he smiled. I had heard of it many times, but yet it's really different when you are in it and someone told you that.

The SMS game was a funny one! It seemed weird, seeing this game became a reality. I still remember esther explaining how this game works enthusiastically in the car on the way to Kasturi, her eyes gleaming. Ahh, there was just so many plannings and ideas discussed in the car for 4 days. That was one month before the concert!

Anyway, after the game, Pastor Paul Ch'ng talked about this one testimony about a boy who had so much hatred towards his parents. But through God's grace and love, he was able to forgive them and even loved them. During the altar call, i was touched to see so many people who went ahead, even more touched to see one whom i know of the background, it was something like the testimony. I glanced across to esther and found her almost in tears. =P. I understand though, she had put so much hope in this concert. Anyway, after that, its food time! The food was just so excellent! So many varieties of them! Then, only i remember how hungry i was.(i didn't take my dinner yet and it was already 10.30) Haha.

I had learned a lot of things during the concert, more to during the preparation for this concert, especially that one week practice. Its truly the process that mattered, how we just did our best and surrendering the end result to God. Of course, there were a lot of ups and downs, misunderstandings, many accidents, many spiritual attacks, worriness to each and everyone who were involved in the concert. I'm glad that through God's protection, all of them were overcame and we were strengthened through that!=D
A lot of the pictures are with the others, especially the group photos.
Here are some of the ones in my camera.

Second rehearsal
(aunty rachel, esther, alvin, desmond, keith)

alethia, aaron, yungyung

the PA people. they had been really good! the earliest to arrive and the latest to leave.

Faith and her Amazing grace dancers

Funky Fever (samuel, ezekiel, simon, calvin, wilson)

Shaun didnt participate but he helped in the dance all the same!

the make up room

i don't have the amazing grace picture.
Samuel's stunt..lol

Gsus revealed

i know i looked like a monster! someone even said i looked like i'd been slapped on my left cheek!

Part of the group (Kai Xin, Aaron, me, the small kid in the video, yungyung, desmond, esther,simon with the pau)
I'm surely gonna miss serving with this bunch of lunatic!haha

I can't believe this concert had come to pass, but i know that there'll surely be greater things in the future for the youth in chinese section. This concert is just the beginning of it. I'm glad to be part of the team. From a dream and vision from God, to the plannings in the back of the classroom, to the invitation, to the practices, to the prayer, to the day!=)

2008-11-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

*axe comes swishing down*

*the sound of ice being hit*

shiiiaaaaaaanng

*it shatters*

*to bits of bits!*

WOOOOOOooooooOOOOOTtTttTtTTSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

SPM IS FINALLY OVER!!

*axe on rest*

*sigh in relief*

The hecticness came tumbling down hence the late shout out!*ehemm..also laziness la*=P

I am just so relieved that its over!Though, my heart is definitely a little heavy to leave the school i loved (eventhough sometimes i hated it) behind, knowing that i will not be going back there as an official convent student. I would say that i am proud to be a student from convent though last time i didn't really show it out or really appreciate everything thats in convent till the very last few months. =)

Oh btw, there'll be a concert coming up on the coming
Monday
which is on the 8th of December!

The name is BREAK FREE CONCERT.

It'll be held in my church, KAOG, which is just right behind of Yuhua's bus stop. Its in Chinese and English. There'll be icebreakers, games, fooooooooooood, music and some words! You can just come to enjoy the concert after the exams and spend your time there knowing friends instead of merely sitting at home doing nothing but feeling bored!

HENCE, COME AND SHOW YOURSELF DURING THE CONCERT!=))

it'll definitely be real fun!

shall see ya'll then on Monday!!

*door slammed shut*

*door opens abruptly back*

REMEMBER TO COME AR
TAss!

*door slammed shut again*

-doze-

2008-11-22T14:35:00.002+08:00

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..are losing..
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their stamina...
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ME!

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O.O!!

BIO and PHYSICS ARE JUST 2 days away!!

2 days!!!!

I can JUST feel myself standing on a moving elevator
and trying to stop it
before it reaches the peak,
in the same time,
thinking whether i can jump 8 steps straight to the top!

which i know i CAN'T!

SO

you know what to do leeyeethong!

*sighs*

*smiles*

*waves at the audience with sorrowful eyes*

*with all the might, slams the window like a pod*

*and topples on the books!*

2008-11-17T13:42:00.004+08:00

its 10 days to FREEDOM!!!

.i shall be like him soon.

SOON!

*laughs off*

Sour conquers?

2008-11-01T14:02:00.003+08:00

intriguing quick sand says:
r u scared of exam???LOL!

joanne says:
erm...i also dono la...

joanne says:
u le?

joanne says:
i havent even start studying le...

intriguing quick sand says:
gosh!then what u did at home?

joanne says:
everyday online ,play psp n watch tv la...

joanne says:
hahaha

intriguing quick sand says:
lol!ur mum didnt say anything?

joanne says:
she said next week i must start studying ledi...

intriguing quick sand says:
lol!next weekk.><

Yeah!That was Joanne!Gosh! That girl is always that calm and cool about exam!Yes! But she'll start to be panic 2 or 3 days before..>.<" For me now, i wonder whether the "thought of something sour" can relieve one's stress or not.
I'd been craving for lian ee's "asam junk" since thursday!
And then, out of the ordinary, i thought of the tomyam bee hun and went to eat it at the Yummy Restaurant.
Besides, unconsciously, on that time too, i ordered sour asam juice.. yeaaahhh~~~.sounds like im pregnant huh..

well, i HOPE i am pregnant!!!

only with the KNOWLEDGE of SPM SUBJECTS!hehehe!=P

p/s: gosh! of all times, im fearing my books now. it just feels like im forced to hug a fierce polar bear!

tA'z!

I will be here

2008-10-29T14:19:00.002+08:00

I just remembered the existence of my old blog in friendster. Man i was astounded at how freely i spoke out my mind about my feelings and the things that were happening. Its just so astounding, well, to me!=). Not knowing what were to happen, what were to come up later. Things changed a great lot since that day, since the day i chose that road. And im glad that i chose that road, which led to the greatest thing that ever happened in my life! Though now, i look back at all the previous post, found some long-lost memories, happenings, things that i used to be familiar with, one thing i know that, God is still the same. He did not change. He is just still so the same as ever. and i know that He is going to accompany me too for my next phase of life, never-changing. Same goes to the rest of the others who chose to trust in Him. Those who have leant against Him for help, shelter, comfort and love. Even at times, everything will seem so bleak, things are tough, and life is like a thread, ready to snap in two at any times, when you trust in Him, He'll be here, always. when you are alone, in a foreign country, when no one seems to care for your existence, your needs, your happiness,you have no friends, no one to look after you when you are old next, continuos mocking from your own siblings, but you know that its enough trusting and loving Him alone, never stopping to look up to Him whenever you heave a sigh after a long-day of work, gaining strength from Him, you have already gained the whole world, the whole full happiness that not even words or anything else can ever give you. Its when you decide, you place your trust, your hope in Him. He will lift you up so high, He will praise you and give you comfort and love beyond anything. Such a beautiful experience you experience every single day. It must be enough, even when you know that once you are back home where you will have to face the scoldings, the jeerings, all of His love, is already enough for you to forgive, for you to be patient, for you to love. Just solely trust in Him, He'll guide you when you don't know which step to take, He knows your every needs, and He knows your everything. He will just absolutely be here...for you.

Tomorrow morning if you wake

up and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here

"FAIL!"

2008-10-23T23:31:00.008+08:00

LOL!don't be fooled by the title "Fail!"!im not talking about SPM here!=P
Instead im talking about these "Fail" videos!
Watch these!
Freaking hilarious!

Weightlifting Fail

Best Man Fail

Car Fail

Reporter Fail

Bumper Fail

Parking Lot Fail

LOL!

One down...

2008-10-20T19:49:00.003+08:00

It was my last BM class today with Pn. Mumtaz after 5 years of learning from her.
It just feels like there is something stripped away from my heart.
Even though at times she may be really fierce, annoying and scary, all those mangkuk, mulut besar, sotong and menyusahkan negara, but the prospect of knowing that she'll not be teaching me again makes me feel really .........dejected.
Well, some may say "whats the big deal?",
but it reminds me of what is going to happen in the coming few weeks, after spm, and next year. There'll be many separations, separation from wonderful friends, school, caring teachers(yes),the things that I had lived with for many many years, the familiar faces in school and in tuitions, the fun times talking at the back of the class and during tuitions, class jualan, exams (yes,i am), canteen and its million cats(where i can see the look of my friends shouting and jumping up from their seat), assembly with teachers sitting in front and the nagging moments...................................................everything.

I know very soon i'll have to let them go and move on.

But still, its hard for me to say and admit that one is already down.

Handbag Planet

2008-10-15T13:10:00.001+08:00

www.handbagplanet.com

CHeck it out!;)

The Stool

2008-10-14T20:11:00.002+08:00

This video is pretty awesome. It just spoke right into my heart. Like a DIiiiiInnnNGggg! I know i am like the girl in the sketch, wanting to give the stool to Jesus but without the REAL willing and, faith and trust in Him!
I pray i will stop the roundabout in me, stop making myself "dizzy" by sitting at the moving roundabout and just stay FOCUS at Him alone in the same time trusting Him!

still sweet seventeen?

2008-10-09T22:53:00.003+08:00

Its time to revive my blog!*not for long tho!*=P

Can't believe its just one month away from SPM!
Had just scared eunice off to stop glueing her face on Facebook but now i'm facing this square flat box here instead! Well, its just been a loooong time since i last speak my desire *as quoted from xinyan, eeeHEEEM!=P*! erm, not quite desire actually!lol!i seriously think i shall change this address of my blog! anyway, trials had just passed two weeks ago! and look at the days left at the side of my blog! gosh! the last time i saw it, it was still lingering above 50! well, sometimes i freaked out, trying to run away from the reality that i have to sit for spm in nov by doing some other stuffs or just sitting and doing nothing at all! i guess its time for me to be brave for it! i want to depend on God for that and to stop worrying! A lot of things had happened in the past month and particularly in the past few days. I feel happy in fact eventhough some of them are not really good ones, it just helped me to know more about myself and opened my eyes to some things i couldn't see last time!
Well, it actually turned out the start of my 17 th year was not a bad one at all, which i previously thought it was!;)

2008-08-25T04:46:00.002+08:00

I've posted the National Service event and also the Youth Rally event in the passion's blog!
Check them out there!

Powerhouse mission Blog

and i heard you say...

2008-08-15T12:49:00.002+08:00

Separations, partings, break ups, divorces..
All of these we will have to face every now and then..
Either its temporary or permanent, big or small, it'll always be there
nothing is permanent in this moving world..
one day we'll have the things we have always wanted, and another day we lost it..
One day we'll be close to this one particular friend, and the next, maybe due to some circumstances or reasons or maybe just no reason at all, separation comes..
One day we'll be on top of the world and may thought we will always be, but what next? we find ourselves at the bottom..
We cannot avoid all of these partings, however, through it, let it to help us to appreciate each other more and to get the most in every opportunity we have before it'll be lost or taken away, not to take things for granted..
All of the separations i had gone through, even though some of them may not be that big, all of them help me to open up my mind and to open my eyes to God, that He still remains and is everlasting.
You will remain after the day is gone and the things on earth have passed
It gives me the assurance that He never fails no matter what!
No matter how many partings im going to go through now or or will later in life,I know that He'll always be there, looking over me.
He promised.

2008-07-31T21:17:00.002+08:00

the FRUIT SEASON is here!!!!

or in another word,

MUSIM BUAH-BUAHAN dah DATANG!!!

I didnt realise it until mum bought heaps of fruits yesterday from pasar malam!
I just thought its only the Durian Season!
I had already more than 20 durians and now they are going into the kitchen again and again!
Glad I didnt fall sick eating durian, not with the heat now!
Currently my kitchen has turned into a dusun with no trees.
Rambutans, mangosteens, papayas, durians, Belanda durians, langsat, etc are in there.
Im glad the monkeys in front of my house had migrated to another jungle!
Totally enjoy the fruits!

They bring a lot of memories back when i was in lower primary when my uncle had not shifted to Muar.
He had a dusun in Malacca!
Always the fun time i had with cousins picking up fruits, playing with the chickens, playing pingpong in the farm, playing hide and seek...=)
It always carves a smile on my face when i reminisce back from where i am now.
It means a lot to me, the fruit season it is.
Do yours too?

p/s : i'm so attached to Prison Break now! How brilliant is that show!Watching Season 2..=P..and you have to watch it too! Highly recommended by me!

ppp/s: Look out for the chicken pox virus! It has been here around in Kajang lately. Two of my friends had already got it and i heard there's one more in another class. Be sure to get the injection especially SPM-ers if you don't want to get the virus right before the BIG exam or the-not-that-BIG trials!

pppppppppp/ssss - Getting my all kinds of Windmill Donuts tomorrow! Bro will be spinning on his back for once and belanja me with it! will update about it next time!;)

Milk and Energy Bar =)

2008-07-19T02:45:00.002+08:00

The tasting of Milk in the middle of the night awakens a lot of memories in me.

Its like prodding a huge Sleeping Beauty.

Some kind of deja vu.

The familiarity of the taste with a sleepy head and drooping eyes.

The smell of the milk around the cold humid air.

With my cold feet trudging from the fridge back to the table.

To finish all the tasks in the eleventh hour.

Oh how I wish its still eleven o'clock!

Well, anyway, Milk again serves as the replacement of Coffee again, today, with a lil extra help from Energy Bar~

Eagle & Dove

2008-07-14T19:20:00.004+08:00

Ooops! Looks like I've again been unfaithful in updating my blog! haha =P

These few weeks had been some of my moments witnessing certain things unfurling into clearer pictures.

I really want to thank God for helping me to endure and presevere me till this moment.
When temptation comes, when old feelings, deeds, sins and hurts start to bang the door threateningly right into me and reminding me of all the bad things that had happened, He saved me again through His grace, His love and understanding.

Love the lyrics of this song.

"Imagine Me without You" by Jaci Velasquez

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

.l.o.v.e.

2008-06-23T18:01:00.002+08:00

I just feel like I'm in a place where werewolves exist and roam around at night!

Was scared in a moment, and another moment not! ><

[double inverted comma] s...w...e...e...t...[double inverted comma]

I wonder how long will this go on?

Anyway, I know God's promise will never fail.

[Psalm 91]

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.

He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,

nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.

A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.

You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;

they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

p/s : Mum just showed me two broken-lizard-eggs! How cute!

Tenors and Bases

2008-06-18T19:50:00.003+08:00

Recalling back on the days when me and the other Altos would try our best and give semangat to each other to sing as low as we could to replace the absence of the Tenor and Base simply leaves me in a funny feeling in the rehearsal yesterday.

The hard thing which is the struggle in singing the low part strongly and "manly" in my school choir because of no guys seems so easily to get when i was there.
Just a simple trying-out the song with the T & B can make SO much difference in a choir!
Imagine convent has guys singing in the choir..the reason why Convent couldn't achieve higher..

Anyway, all of this reminds me of Chuck Larry in the movie Cast Away when he tried so hard to lit a fire to cook by natural ways because he was stranded in an island. Then, after 4 years, when he was back at his real home, he picked up the lighter and simply by just pulling the trigger, lighted up a fire.

The rehearsal is actually for the Christmas carolling which will go on for 14 days in Genting few days after SPM. After all the many askings, thinkings, planning moments, getting the way right and preparations made, me and Eunice decided to go together to this thing after being asked by Melvin. Thanks for enduring with us!haha..

Hope everything will go on well during the journey there!=)

Will update more next time!

The two books

2008-06-16T22:27:00.003+08:00

I was packing my bag when I found out that my English Literature book was not there.
Remembering what my teacher had warned us about the Monsoon History and that she will definitely punish those who don't bring and translate the poem tomorrow left me into a frantic search of the book.
Well, there should be two books instead!
I vividly remember it!
They always pop out in front of my table in random times.

But now I just can't see any of them nearby here.
Even how many times i searched the cupboards and flipped over pages of books.
Still, they are not there.

Well, it just sort of brought back some deja vu to me.

Crazy Lines in June!

2008-06-14T10:25:00.013+08:00

Its already in the middle of June!
How many months and days left for SPM?
Pretty near and threatening for me as I haven't really started to indulge myself into textbooks!
Still, these past days had been great and memorable days for me!
I hope I will never ever forget these events and things that were or are going around now at this time!

Hmm..I'll start with the events in June holiday..
My class had went together to klcc to take some pictures for the magazine this year..
Pretty funny time we had and later on had a great walk with Joanne and Mimi!
We walked in the whole klcc stores, tried a lot of clothes and even went to Midvalley to try to catch on a movie (but its full), then managed to walk one floor of Midvalley..
Crazy times but we had fun!
I uploaded the pictures i took in PhotoBucket so whoever(fateha, syahirah etc) who wants it for the magazine can take it!

Class KLCC Outing Pictures

In that same week too, I had gone to my aunt's wedding in Penang.
It had gone on for like 3 days consecutively with many dinners and walk ins and outs.
A nice wedding and we enjoyed ourselves there.
Still, i was quite disappointed they didn't had it at the beach.
It'll be more fun!hehe
Some pictures here during the wedding

Wonderful!On the Penang bridge actually going to Penang island to celebrate bro's birthday!

A small meeting with the bride on what job we were supposed to do!
And i got this together with my cousin!><

"Angpow money Calculator"!

My grandmother from my mother's side and aunt came too

And this dude too below

Yeah, thats my cousin on the left! He had nothing to do at that time and just joined the dinner for fun!><
Anyway, had some performances and singings and the bridegroom performed on stage too with his flute.

The next day. Just some random pictures

Me and my cousin, the flowergirl!

The last night at the guy's side.

The bride and bridegroom and my grandmother on father's side.

I will continue next time today with more updates as I still had my two weeks ago English homework to be done by afternoon!
So till here first!=)

2008-06-05T19:25:00.003+08:00

the stranger's eyes
they seem near
yet they hold many goodbyes
leaving the beholder
in an intense battle
between the truths....

...and lies

Under His wings

2008-05-30T11:15:00.003+08:00

[Romans 8:15]
For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."

[Romans 8:25]
But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

[Romans 8:35]
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

[Romans 8:38-39]
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

[Romans 9:16]
It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy.

[Romans 9:21]
Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?

All glory to Big Daddy above alone!

By the way, i am off to Penang for a wedding till Monday!
So, toodle-oo! ;)

I'M FLYING!!!YAAAY!!

express train?.not.

2008-05-29T18:03:00.004+08:00

I can't even express myself!
Sigh..
This is hard..
I tried but I just can't..
This is torturing..
the pressure from every side..
They are all in different forms and sources.
Sometimes i thought that i can be able to, but in fact i can't.
Sometimes i thought it may be because of my pride, but sometimes i don't think it is.
Only songs, photos and maybe paintings can be able to make me express though that's not really the goal of it.
Well, sometimes you may wonder what I'm talking about here and why can't i just talk straight to the point.
I just can't!
I can only use illustrations to convey my message instead of clear words and all because its just too much and messy.
Only God knows what im exactly feeling right now.
Pouring against that metallic wall.
Only the small little sound and a bit of echo can be heard from the outside.
The ant is just in that hole.
Showing a dumb face while the hammer is in that box.

I welcome, really welcome.

Pasar Seni

2008-05-27T20:34:00.024+08:00

Last Sunday, I went to Pasar Seni with my Masean friends and I met some other friends as well which is quite unbelievable! Never thought I'll meet them there in Masean!
Really had fun on that day and I think I talked and laughed more than I enjoyed the paintings there!

in Masean..unbelievable friends showed up!

Jia Ni posing with her camera!
Mr. Liew, my teacher

Jia ni (with her camera), me, Xiu Wen, TzeLing!

Soo Yee (the great dancer and artist!), and me!(i look retarded mayn!)

We walked to KTM and sat a train to KL..
Reached to a place really familiar to me since i was small..

A place i used to go frequently with my late grandfather and cousins.

The Central Market

Below the Pasar Seni

in Pasar Seni - the second floor i think
a lot of kids' paintings..and they are creative!
Reyoko, Tze Ming and Tze Ling signing the guestbook!

Helen, Xiuwen, Sooyee

i think this was drawn by an 8 year old kid!lol..so yeah..u wonder the creativity of it..

i love three of the drawings there..they are clocks!

Looks very real..if only he drew David Cook!haha..nah....

Helen took this..i like that apple drawing below..=)

this is Xiuwen!haha..joking!just find this picture amusing!

the right boy is Jason Cham. never thought that i'll meet him there! and got the shock of my life when i know that he is Vivian and Sooyee's cousin!

Behind me the paintings are done by 8 to 12 year old kids
There's one more gallery which is done by a very famous artist called...i forgot his name already but i still remember his face and frizzy hair..haha..well, colourful paintings he got there..and they are real expensive!lol!

After the Pasar Seni, me, Xiuwen and Sooyee sneaked out early to watch movie in Midvalley.
Its kinda funny during the journey when we were wondering whether we were at the right station and all.
Had a real fun time.
We watched "The Chronicles of Narnia".
It is a nice movie!
I wonder why Ah yang and Amy said its not nice and that they fell asleep half way!LOL!

The popiah me and xiuwen had. have always liked this popiah!
was rushing at that time though because left 20 minutes before the movie!

Had a fun time altogether!=D

Good day to you!

Davids

2008-05-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

I can't remember when is the last time I've been really interested in this American Idol show.

This year is a real total hit!
They are SOO good and I'm so totally in love with the voice of the two Davids!
Its totally mesmerizing!

Both from totally different types of music..
David Cook the rock ones while David Archuleta the pop,jazz,romantic kind.
They are just extremely brilliant!
Just simply can't vote for any of them.

I love David Cook for his husky special voice, daring move in editing the songs, nice editing too, and the special him on the stage!though not his a lil arrogant part..lol!

While David Archuleta, I love his voice too, giving me the ....."funny-tingling-in-heart-special" kind of feeling after knowing that one point of time, he actually gone through a terrible stage for a boy who has such a passion for music where he had voice paralysis and gone through a very dangerous operation for that. The history..well, anyway, i like him also because he has the wanting to bless people with his voice. Truly a blessing..=)..not forgetting he is humble too.

anyway, i just GOT TO KNOW THAT.....urghhhhh.....from very tiny lil sources..people's comments in youtube, eunice's words and wikipedia that the the the.......*SPOILER*(if u don't know who wins and don't wanna know, i would advise you not to read the rest of this post!)

the DAVID CCOOOOOK WON!><

ohmy..!
im so gonna go learn cooking now!lol!
nahhhh

i just wish there are two winners for the American Idol just for this time..=(

Well, really enjoy those fantastic songs from the both of them!=D
Really anticipating for their albums when they are out!;D

Have a good day!;)

God is love!

2008-05-19T09:17:00.003+08:00

All of this while, God has been merciful and loving towards me. He guarded my way and told me where i have gone wrong so that I will be able to walk back to Him. He taught me and are readily to accept me back! In the process, He is gracious enough to help me because He just understands that i need the strength to do it!I will never ever do it alone without Him at all!I've been trying to save a lot of pride in my certain relationship. There's still a lot of work on that but when looking back from here towards my past which is full of cold-hearted, hard-hearted(if ever there is this word) time, i realised that He has been looking and guarding me all the time to the way out of this particular sin and giving me the will to do it.
Praise God and its all His glory!

Anyway, recently there's one day when He put some thoughts in me. I was totally excited for an event and I had put in a lot of effort and plans into it. A change i want to see in that event, i was really fire up.
However, everything just went broken into pieces at the very last minute as it had already happened again and again in fact. I cried out to God and I thought that this is exactly God must be feeling. In fact, more sad than me because its His children Himself who is treating Him like this all the while. Being ignorant and forsaking Him. How sad is He to see His children going astray everywhere. But still, because of love, He still tries His hardest to reach out to His lost lambs because He just loves us too much! How wonderful and pure that love is? I remember my teacher said that lambs actually do not know they will be killed in a second time. When there is a butcher raising up his ax ready to strike the lamb, the lamb will not even recognize the danger and still standing and staring at it innocently. That's exactly like how humans are. We dont know that danger is just right beyond us and went staring blinkly at it. But God choose to protect us if only we could turn our eyes towards Him. Praise the Lord!

By the way, i found out about this wonderful fact!
Do you know that we have protein molecules in our body?
I bet its a yes..haha
But do you know that there's this protein molecule called "laminin"?
The role of laminin in our body is actually to bind our body tissues and all together.

Here is the wonderful part!

the structure of the laminin is exactly shaped like the cross!
its like we can see His mark through the Biology area..haha
He even stated it in this verse..

[Colossians 1:16-17]
16For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. 17He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.

How wonderful are His creations..=)

Pressie Taggie

2008-05-15T17:06:00.003+08:00

Hey! its almost after exam! well, in fact i feel im already at the bottom of the roller coaster lane for a long time. lol!
anyway, taking this opportunity to post up the tag from Xinyan and also Charlene.
I know its been a long time..(xinyan has been nagging me..=P)
Toodle-oo!

Part 1: On the outside
Name: Lee Yee Thong
Date of Birth: 6th October 1991
Current Status: im not a Datin..still Miss..=)
Eye Colour: Black
Hair Colour: Black...with some brown strips..its not artificial, mind you..><"
Righty or Lefty: r..i..g...h.....t.....
Zodiac Sign: the "dacing" aka Libra

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: malaysian with China blood
Your Fear: to be abandoned, or sometimes height!*i remember my experience at the Great Wall of China!scary!*
Your Weakness: totally procrastination, sometimes insensitive, and easily feeling bad..><

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: it changes everyday..well, my latest one is "which alarm clock wakes me up?"*fumbling around*
Your bedtime: depends but mostly is around 12
Your most missed memory: the olden days with friends, family trips, in kindergarden!i just really hope i can meet back all of my kindergarden's friends!it'll be SO COOL!LOL

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke!the ever chilling drink with piiiiizzzaaa!!!
McD's or Burger King: MCD! Burger King bankrupt ady in Parkson..lol
Single or Group Dates: well, it depends..group dates will be nice in the future with just close friends..single dates are nice too..
Adidas or Nike: .just.do.it.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: erm..don't really investigate which one i like more..but i guess should be Lipton..*reminiscing my time chilling with tea in Cameron..relaxing...=)*
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!used to be my addiction but glad that i stop it!! well, vanila too sometimes..=)..lets just say i LOVE the both of YOU!!XD
Cappuccino or Coffee: as long as its ice-blended, both will do..

Part 5: Do You..
Smoke: will not ever ever touch the cigaratte!eewww...i wonder how people would want to spoil their lungs by inhaling smoke!!its just...smoke??o.OO
Curse: yeah..haizz..mostly is "shit"!anyway, am doing a kind of competition between me, esther siah, and mimi to not curse for a month!haha!
Drink : not until drunk! *ng, the Shandy is not counted okay!LOL!*

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: oh..nope!its been a long time!
To the mall: NNNOOOOOOO!!!! but am going to this monday!!!!
Been on stage: yess... =)
Eaten sushi: yeah..but the more i eat it..the more i don't like it..><..i prefer my homemade ones which i put tuna in it..=P
Dyed your hair: no..im still schooling! pn nirmala's and Cik Besira's eyes are sharper than anyone! LOL!

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: no..i rela play "Bullshit" game..aha
Changed who you were to fit in: i remember there's about one month i almost fall into that, but in the end im still lee yee thong..=)

Part 8: Age
You're hoping to be married: well, maybe..=)

Part 9: In A Guy/GirlBest
eye colour: brown or black
Hair colour: black or brown...
Short or long hair: i prefer short hair but not until too short..just okay..maybe the type of cowboy hairstyle!haha..

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: chatting
1 hour ago: eating home-made burgeerrssss!
1 month ago: enjoying life!
1 year ago: preparing and excited for the YPF camp!

Part 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: Jesus, family relatives, friends, myself
I feel: different kinds of feelings now..
I miss: the olden times when friends gather together and have fun!!
I need: to be more obedient, to have willpower, i need to open up my eyes to the things around me, i need more brain cells!lol!, i need ..ohmy...there are just so many needs!

Part 12: Tag 6 People

yoonjhen
carolyn
eunice
mikha
abby
debbie
yi yang

List out 5 presents you wish for:

- a beautiful home-made bookmark!
- a beautiful key chain! i love keychains but i dont have many!
- nice sets of candles..aww...i just love candles..too bad when they are being lit up, no more will be left..
- a small monument of myself..haha
- good story books!!
- a song specially made for me..that'll be cool!haha

A kiss where it hurts

2008-05-10T23:00:00.005+08:00

I came across this post from a blog some other day and I just wanted to share it with you all.

I saw Jesus today.

Oddly enough, He quite resembled a middle-aged mother sitting beside her disabled son.
I found myself directly behind them at a Shepherd Center's chapel service today and witnessed her do the most amazing, yet simple thing as the speaker challenged us to "taste life again." With her arm resolutely(firmly determined) arcing around her boy's shoulders, holding on to him as for dear life and seemingly oblivious to the homily and all else around her, she leaned into him gently and offered a well-placed kiss squarely on his left shoulder.

Her son had recently joined the ranks of quadriplegia and his high-level neck injury left him with little control over nine-tenths of his body.
Even his head had to be stabilized with a network of headrests attached to his wheelchair, each one supporting a separate zone so that his head would not tip from side to side.

What struck me about this tender vignette was that the mother zeroed in on the one place her son could feel and placed her kiss there.
Once was not enough, however, not for this mother.
A few moments later, my already misting eyes beheld her turn again to her son and look up at him.
He was sitting much higher than she, but no bother.
Not for this mother.
She leaned in once more and found again that place on his shoulder but this time the kiss lingered a few moments longer.
The son couldn't turn his head to respond but I could still see the upward flexing of a cheek muscle from behind and knew that he must have been sporting a grin a mile wide!

For this mother, sitting beside her son was not nearly enough.
She needed to kiss him to let him know that she was there, that she cared and that she was not going anywhere.

I couldn't tell you everything the chaplain said this afternoon but I can sure tell you the sermon my eyes witnessed, verbatim, because I just did.
As I rolled away from the auditorium in my own wheelchair, I found myself in a conversation with the Lord.
In all actuality it was a monologue because my Father was doing all the talking.
He was using that visual aid to let me know that He can be found most easily where there is pain, despair and heartsickness.

"I AM in this place," He spoke into my spirit as I navigated the dogleg of the long hallway known as the Bridge.
The words were kind and tender, not intoned with "and don't you ever forget it!" but carried with them the lilt of a self-binding promise.
And just so I couldn't mistake His intentions, the Great Physician bent even closer to announce, "I AM in every room and on every floor of this hospital."

Shepherd Center is one of the finest rehabilitation institutions in the world.
It used to service only spinal cord injuries but has in recent years expanded to serve the needs of those with acquired brain injuries and MS.
In some of its patient rooms there might be closed fists thrusts toward the heavens from those who curse the ways of the Lord, there are certainly those who shrug off deity altogether or deny His existence and worship at the altar of science.

But in such a place, God is at His best as He kisses the shoulders of the hurting.
He cannot be spurned or pushed away.
Nosiree.
Not when there are wounds to bind and broken hearts to mend.
Like a doting mother bending over a scraped knee or attending to a fevered brow, He knows just where to kiss it to make it feel better.

"He heals the broken-hearted and binds up their wounds."
(Psalm 147:3)

If you have been waylaid by life and left bleeding on the side of the road or even if your pain is not nearly so graphic and traumatic but you are hurting nonetheless and numb to any sensation of hope,

get ready to hear the Lord say to your wounded spirit, "I AM here."
And get ready to feel His kiss where it hurts.

Consider these kisses from a Friend:

[1 Peter 5:7]
Casting all your cares (anxieties, worries) upon the Lord, for He cares for you.

[Hebrews 4:15]
We have a Great High Priest who can sympathize with our weaknesses…

[Isaiah 63:9]
In all our grief (distress, affliction), He too is grieved (distressed, afflicted).

[Hebrews 13:5]
I will never leave you, nor will I forsake you.

[Isaiah 50:4]
The Lord God has given me the tongue of those who are learned, that I may know how to sustain with a word those who are weary.

[Romans 8:39]
Nothing will separate me from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus my Lord.

Try this exercise:
put your name in the appropriate places in each of the verses above and I am certain that all that ails you will be trumped by the well-placed kiss of the One who holds you in His everlasting arms.

Never, never underestimate the power of a kiss be it from a doting mother or an Eternal Father.

With Him, a kiss is never just a kiss.

credit to pasturescott.blogspot.com

delicate

2008-05-08T18:56:00.001+08:00

Awww!! I simply fall in love with this!!

The delicacy of the sound and the tendency of it but a little wild at the same time.
It just gives me the kind of mysterious feeling.

i wonder..

Polkie Cosy!

2008-05-07T16:05:00.006+08:00

Everything seems to be calm now..

Nothing is moving..

No wind can be felt..

It just simply slows down and stops.....

for I am at the PEAK OF A LANE OF A COLLER ROASTER!!

opsss!! i mean ROLLER COASTER!!!WWWOOOOOOOO!!!

BM, Eng, and Maths papers are all over while the HARDER subjects are waiting for me at the bottom of the lane!YEAAAHHH!!

Tomorrow I'll be swooshing down the lanes with screams at the top of my lungs, eyeballs bulging out while trying to pull myself away from the seats of the moving coaster only to find myself flying without wings!!

Naaaahhhhhh....i was just meeerrely exaggerating..=P
I can still wait actually for the exams to slowly tick by..

well, to be exact, half of me wish the exams to be fast!Half of me not wanting to!
Part of the reasons is that when this is over, means TRIALS are nearer..
When trials are nearer, it means what??
YESSH!!
which means

SPM is NEARER!!
WOOO!!!and it means that I'll be going to college/form6 soon!!!
really soon!!it will just be like a blink of the eye!
NOOO!!i want to enjoy my life as a higher secondary school student first as much as i can!!
well, for me to do that is just like trying to save falling rices from falling to the ground..yeah..something like that..o.OO..

But if its fast, i can just do ALOT of things!!
Plannings after plannings to be made and im just SO excited!
its so thrilling!!

Phew!i should better go and calm myself down a lil bit and get myself to study now..><""

Till then!
God Bless all of you out there!!

Sawatdi!!=D

Coffee

2008-04-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

Out of the blue, so many cups of coffee at the same time!
I don't know whether to like it or not.
If only there is no exam lingering so nearby, i would have enjoyed even more!
Well, am trying to drink the cups of coffee one gulp by one gulp.=)

Anyway, am trying to enjoy my life now despite of the exams.
At last, i think im getting back on my focus instead of the now and then 300 power of short-sightedness.
He said the building was actually very finely and strongly built.
However, they decided to empty the basement and to cut off some pillars of the buildings in order to add in some parking lots. That's why it just went tumbling down one fine day.
Had fun with couzie and his gf today.
hope they can come more often.

by the way, recently, one friend of mine who is called Vic rapped in this song called "Song Cry"
I find it pretty nice!
Have a try in it!;)

I am planning not to online for this one whole week!
So, Hopefully i can be able to resist the temptation to not touch the computer!;)
Here wishing all the best to everyone who is going to take exams!
Till then!=)
Ciao!

tangled thread in sulphuric acid

2008-04-24T16:51:00.004+08:00

I feel like im stuck in the world of chemistry which i dislike so much!
its like being forced to be stranded in a foreign country where you don't understand a single language there!
i really see no hope in me surviving through chemistry questions during exam.='(
there is absolutely no interest in me at all towards this subject..what more to memorize all of the things inside..
i think i even like sejarah more than chemistry..which is bad..=(
felt so awful for not being able to help answer a form4 chemistry question when people thought that i am not bad in it and should be able to answer that simple question!
yes, i think it should be a simple one..=S..
instead of giving the right answer and making the person understand and leaving the person to go away with a satisfied heart for being able to understand what i teach,
the person taught and explained to me instead of what the question is about..
and then i realised that the burning on my cheeks is getting more familiar each and every day instead of the feeling of joy of being able to help out in studies of others..

looks like maybe i should turn away from the door to being a teacher..=(

*just some random tangled thread there today*

An album of reminiscences

2008-04-20T22:25:00.004+08:00

Remembering what mumtaz said, "Buat semua benda gila yang kamu nak buat tu di sekolah sekarang!Kamu takkan alami lagi apa yang kamu alami sekarang di kolej nanti!Pengalaman di sekolah adalah yang terbaik dan paling seronok!"

I was nodding all the time at what she was saying at the back of the class.
These words were like high-pitched-notes ring telling me that "HEY!This is YOUR LAST YEAR being a student in a SCHOOL! HELLO!" I was totally awake at that time like being banged between cymbals.

And so, that was part of my reason why there is this "Freeze" thing going on in my class!
I saw it in Miss Cheryl's blog about this "Freeze-ing" activity and i found it rather amusing and fun!
So, thats where that "Freezing" was born in my class!
Its really fun seeing the teachers' confused or shocked faces and had a laugh or two with the whole class!

Anyway, the other day, my class fused with the 3 nilams girls to celebrate pn.pushpa's birthday.
it was totally a surprise party and everything sort of went quuuuuiiiiiittte well except one part where we were still Freeze-ing, pn pushpa was like saying, "Hello, Lima Berlian girls, Im going to report you all for coming to this class without permission!" We were practically trying to force ourselves not to laugh and in the same time thinking 'Oh oh!'. It was hilarious! Overall, we had a fun time pulling teacher's leg and giving her a surprise party!

In that same week too, i had done something that i will never forget. I joined my school's singing competition. It really was a last minute thing but i did not regret after that! It gave me that another type of experience being on stage singing! Although it was really scary, mind you but well, im glad that i accepted that challenge. i got to be the first runner-up while eunice got chosen for the pesta senirama! Praise God for everything!=)

The next day, went to Tien Pao's supposedly-surprise-birthday party. We planned and imagined all sorts of things but ended up she knew everything from the beginning!LOL!it was hilarious though during the planning days. Enjoyed the party and also the bullshit game with friends there. AND maybe also that prank candles! I didnt know there is that kind of candles! it was cool!

All in all, that week was totally a week full of laughter, friendship building moments and trusting moments.

Thats one chapter of my school life there!=D

p/s: i got lazy uploading those pictures here. So, those who want the pictures, just let me know through the shoutbox there so that i can send you the invitation to my photo album.

2008-04-14T19:12:00.005+08:00

Aww.....awwwwful afternoon it was for me!

And the awfulness is still lingering in me till now ..
that was my FIRST experience of that type of awfulness..

now i can truly understand and feel for others who had went through and are going through and should be feeling much much more awful than me!
im actually trying to remember that awful thing so that it can be kept as a reminder that im actually weak..

Anyway, had a fun morning instead though and tomorrow WILL BE just as fun as that too!
...i hope!=P

.till then.

With You

2008-04-10T19:48:00.006+08:00

tingling in confusing manner
her heart just can't take much
yet it searches whats the matter
that gives her that big punch

these few days for me are mainly about that thing. it strikes again moving me. to experience all the past again. its scary. i used to care so much even though i was really shy to tell that i care till it hurts deeply in me. they are scars for now. yet i think im cutting that scars back again. im actually quite tired to care that much. its like as if i had just gone over that stage, then im being pulled back in again. don't really know why i'm not that "light-hearted" anymore. i hope i wont lose that one thing though. well, maybe this time the operation may hurt as much as last time. yet i know maybe that's the thing i should do to go against the rubbish. maybe the flowers are singing that same song in the heart too!=)

i hope it'll heal soon and disappear so i won't have to look at that same scar again.

+simply like this picture again+

and wanna dedicate this song to these flowers!*these song reminds me of these flowers..lol*

the salt water

2008-04-09T00:10:00.006+08:00

hidden beneath a trough.
and floated away for 22 hours.
Knowing not where i am.
covered by the crest in front.

gulping in salt water.
and aches the sore in heart.
a hissing sound it gave.
neither nice nor beautiful.

the more its left exposed.
the more it becomes like a host.
a terrible host in me.
which robbed me from myself.

Flapping through the waves.
and pushing downward.
to lift me back up.
for that one gasp of breath.

it takes more and more energy.
for that one swift of motion.
hope of straining for that white beach.
seems merely like a dream.

Clouds of the thunderstorm.
hovering just above the big sea.
only blocked by moving wind.
from releasing its many drops.

Everywhere is just so wet.
beside me, around me, and in me.
where can i turn to somewhere dry?
where can i grab the sandy beach again?

turning my head around.
in time for the wave,
the wave of water and emotion.
to strike deeply again.

hitting hard on the face.
and forcing down the head.
to that once familiar place.
of complete darkness in sea.

i drink the salt water again.

Weird angles

2008-04-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

These few days looked normal in the outside until it became abnormal to me in the inside.
Every day situations that i go through every single time suddenly became so real.
It just looks like an outline of everything that had happened previously till now.
A deep clear outline.
Inside struggling to move in my tired body, im trapped!
There's so much to do and so many thinkings and decisions and actions to be made, yet so little time left.

Being shifted to another stage of discipline makes me really uncomfortable.
I guess God is trying to teach me something in and through that feeling of uncomfortableness.
These few days, when i look up, suddenly i think that how can i compare the most beautiful building in the world built by great men or anything else that is from men to the wonderful sky and clouds, the universe, the creations on Earth, the plants from the Creator, and also His greatness.
He is just SO worthy to be praised for all His greatness and goodness and also for who He is.
suddenly, i just feel like an ant.

anyway, sorry for my confusing entry here.

Dawn

2008-03-30T17:20:00.003+08:00

I feel encouraged a lot today.

Morning today was started with a really great worship!
I was totally moved and relaxed, free to worship God alone with all of my mind without thinking what others will think about me. He brought me through all of it, all the pains, all the humiliation. I know I will go through this one too, that is being self-conscious while worshipping. Well, it seems like its something small, but I know that it is really bad to be scared to worship for just Him alone especially in front of family members.
God is just gentle enough to help me overcome this matter and also giving me opportunities to overcome it with some sort of a guidance/help. I'm deeply grateful and happy!=D

After service, went to pastor's house for leader's cell. That was my first time attending it. I feel really encouraged and relieved in a way to me to know that the leaders and also Pastor Calvin are also aware of the condition of our youth nowadays and are trying to figure out a way to overcome it. I just feel there is a light shining on my youth and hope to be united together and to be more open towards each other. Well, in the first place, leaders are the ones to start that of course and to set an example. First thing first, more effort must be put on carecell and I need to focus!=).
I hope that we will be able to move on to the next level and not to stay too comfortable at the position we are having now! That'll make us to slack off.

Today is really a day to be remembered and also a day to be marked as the starting of all the changes that are going to happen in my youth!
I'm excited!

I'm tagged!

2008-03-28T18:57:00.003+08:00

Here being tagged by Xin Yan, so fulfilling the task I'm given..haha!=P

1. At what age do you wish to be married?

maybe around 29-30?lol..i'll never know..maybe i won't be marrying also..

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you'd take and why?

blog buddies eh?maybe eunice-her positive thinking, ng-her calmness and chai-her wittiness(in a good way k chai..haha!)..and can i add one more??haha..maybe Miss Cheryl also..lol!i guess she'll know what to do best?haha..*don''t laugh, ng!*

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

The land of cows ----New Zealand!have always wanted to go there..

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

to have a really intimate relationship with God..

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?

yes, i can!it'll be challenging..haha..

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?

my passion

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

go travelling!

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

it depends.. =)

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

xinyan
- fun
- truthful!
- thoughtful!!
*hope to know you more!;)*

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

trustworthy, dependable, caring, understanding, romantic, adventurous, hardworking, has his own passion, knows how to play at least one musical instrument!=P

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?

i shall not list down because am learning to accept and love people from different personalities to different backgrounds!

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?

i will not because all of the falls in my past help me to learn more things about life and grow closer to Him.

13. Can you tell what's your future going to look like ?

*shrug*. Have to ask for guidance that one.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

God, family, friends, my interests..*haha..maybe i should change the question to 'things'!*=P

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?

no, am not..haha..but doesn't mean I don't like shopping!

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

To be more easy-going and open-minded in some areas..

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?

people i'm comfortable with..

18. What's your weakest point?

to be sensitive in the things that are NOT supposed to AND to NOT be sensitive in the things that AM supposed to!lol!i know thats weird!

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?

Easy to accept new things..?or maybe the ability to forget the things i am stressed in!!haha!!

20.once again .. how do u spell nucleus ?..

you don't know? you just typed it out!

I'm putting the tag onnnnn....

Chai!

Charlene

Ng?maybe this is a good way to revive your blog..haha

eunice? don't know whether you'll have the time ornot..

Breathing

2008-03-27T21:54:00.003+08:00

God does not give patience
He gives opportunity for patience!

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When you let God in, when you breathe, what happens is you become aware of all the things you need to leave behind, everything you need to let go of."

-Rob Bell (from the DVDS "Breathe" and "Today")

I'm still learning to really let go of some things, some bad things which I had been attached to very tightly and long until its a hard thing to let go.
A large stone deep down in my heart that had caused many calluses and scar to throw away.
I'm so glad that I'm not alone in this walk because I know I can't do it alone without God!
I need His courage and His grace!!

Oh My!

2008-03-24T19:37:00.005+08:00

Just finish naming my new-born baby hamster, I have yet to name another animal!

Which is unbelievable!

I can only describe it as a WOW! lol!

Previously, I had wished to have dogs, hamsters, guinea pigs, rabbits, a parrot and a monkey!
Now, I have already a dog and three hamsters.
Yet, this morning, I had to tick off again one of the names I had written down in that list of animals I want!

UNbelievable!

I had never thought that I can actually own that animal as a pet because I know mum wouldn't buy it!

The only way to own that animal is only when the animal comes to my house itself!

.....which it almost impossible!

and YET!

IT HAPPENED!!

I'm now the master of a PARROT!!*faint in disbelief*

Isn't it beautiful? I'm yet to identify it as a male or female though I assume it as a female after seeing some eyelashes around its eyes. But do birds have eyelashes? O.O

I just love its green and blue feathers which mix together to become turquoise!

Im yet to find out what breed is this. I think this parrot is pretty common though.

Anyway, that parrot marks today as the third month I've shifted here!

just unbelievable to me!
i think my house will be turning into a zoo soon..><

P/S :I think I have better cancel off the wish to have a monkey in case it happen again!Mind you, there are more than 10 monkeys staying in front of my house!*><

The Birth!

2008-03-20T10:23:00.010+08:00

My hamster gave birth to her first four babies in just two months yesterday!

That's just TOO fast!
means in one year, I'll have 24 new hamsters!!*horrified face*

I had seen Touiee's body bigger like usual but didn't suspect anything about it.
I just thought it had eaten a lot and grew fatter thats all.
I was in school when Touiee and Rata became parents.
According to mum, when kakak was transferring the hamsters to their "swimming pool", Touiee was like moving around in pain.
Out of a sudden, there popped a head!
A lot of blood was there and it was really disgusting!*i wonder how it'd looked like!*

[Squirming around like worms. Kinda cute tho =) ]

As this is the first time we rear hamsters, my mum put all the hamsters into the cage.
We didn't know that we should separate the male hamster from his kids!
So, when mum saw Rata biting one of the baby hamsters, she thought that he was merely carrying it up like how a father should do! LOL

But ended up like this!

No, not clear enough! Maybe....

THIS!!

[ It looks like a finger that is being chopped off! I can actually see its ribs, lungs and heart!]

This poor baby hamster after being eaten by his own dad, its half body was again being entered to another mouth.

Not Rata's , but HATTA's!

Mum screamed when she found out the body was lost.
Hatta was shocked by her scream and so teraccidentally opened her mouth and vomit out the body!lol!

Poor thing.....

[ Feeding Touiee with a nut topped with wasabi! Funny reaction she gave! LOL!]

[ The culprit hiding in the jail!]

[ Dangerous pose. well, she is always like that!]

Anyway, i am thinking the names for the three newborn babies.

Any suggestion? =)

Feather

2008-03-16T22:32:00.004+08:00

Throwing up the feather and letting it blown by the wind. The pure white feather flew with each of its melody. A melody so serene yet rich with meanings. It touches the heart of the listener deeply.
The sound of the harp it dances along as if every note brings joy to the feather alone. Unexplainable yet it dances so gracefully. Born it is till it gives the heart a lift.

A lift so high

The feather is free.

Free...

Take off the slippers!!

2008-03-15T08:37:00.004+08:00

When you are forgotten, neglected, or purposely set at naught, and you don't sting or hurt with the oversight, but your heart is happy being counted worthy to suffer for Christ;

That is dying to self.

When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed, your advice disregarded, your opinion ridiculed, and you refuse to let anger rise in your heart or even defend yourself, but take it all in patient, loving silence;

That is dying to self.

When you lovingly and patiently bear any disorder, any irregularity, any annoyance; when you can stand face to face with waste, folly, extravagance, spiritual insensibility, and endure it as Jesus did;

That is dying to self.

When you are content with any food, and offering, any raiment, any climate, any society, any solitude, any interruption by the will of God;

That is dying to self.

When you never care to refer to yourself in conversation or record your own good works or itch after commendation, when you can truly love to be unknown;

That is dying to self.

When you can see your brother prosper and have his needs met, and can honestly rejoice with him in spirit and feel no envy, nor question God, while your own needs are far greater and you are in desperate circumstances;

That is dying to self.

When you can receive correction and reproof from one of less stature than yourself and can humbly submit, inwardly as well as outwardly, finding no rebellion or resentment rising up within your heart;

That is dying to self.

[Quoted from www.allaboutfollowingjesus.com]

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There are times when we may think that we had already surrendered everything of us to God but actually we are not really giving everything but just a quarter of us.
We tend to think we had already but still we are taking a great effort not to spill everything of us to Him and are afraid not to be in control of our lives either consciously or unconsciously.=S
God will not be able to work fully in our life if we just place a little of us unto Him.
Its like you either choose to sit on the roller coaster or to not sit.
You can't be putting half of your body in it right!=)

Surrendering to Him might seem a bit too "unsafe" and risky for you, but He had already promised if you surrender to Him, He'll guide you in your walk much more better than you yourselves because He know the plans He have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future!
He knows EXACTLY what we need!

So lets RELAX, accept the exciting ride He offer us and have faith in Him! cheers!=D

Totally amazing!

2008-03-11T21:17:00.003+08:00

i feel SO human now!
Standing here and being struck by what i can't do without the grace of God.

D.u.m.b.f.o.u.n.d.i.n.g. i am!!
Haha

Haha! I just find this kinda cute!

p/s: i SOOOOOO SOOOOOO SOOOOOO miiiiiiiisssss my PIANO that I promise NEVER to abandon it anymore!!!!! I can't believe it has almost been three months i didn't touch it!*sobsob*='(

In the wide

2008-03-08T11:00:00.003+08:00

He said even a small detail of a picture has to be taken care of.
He related that to God who takes care of the small little dot(us) in a really big picture(universe).
He said the outcome of a blank piece of paper is all depend on us who are the painter.
He said its really important to read biographies of other artists.
He said we have to write more poems because its the best way to balance our left brain and right brain.
He said its crucial for us to think and observe more of the things around us.
He called us not to be a shallow-minded person but a person who thinks in a wider view.
He called us to gain more knowledge.
He said drawing is not the only art and he called us to enjoy other arts in this world too.
He said when he was 15 years old, he had allowed his brain to wonder past the more complicated and crucial thing in our life.
Then, he trusts in Jesus Christ.
He does not want us to be trapped in the small art classroom but to go out and see more things so he has organized a lot of outings.
He gives encouragement to the needy.
He said its important to be sensitive to arts.
He said its also important to be able to express yourself out.
Its impossible to create a new artwork if we can't express ourselves.

And he said we have to be brave to touch the tip of the brush that is in our hands to that blank piece of paper!

I wrote down some of the things he said here so that I won't forget what he said.

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When I'm in a rough sea and thinks everything is impossible and hopeless, He'll always be there and make everything possible. When He is there, there is hope!

Changing of the wind

2008-03-06T17:12:00.003+08:00

Hey! Today had been a little hectic for me! Still in my opinion, I think its getting towards the better change! I am glad. :)
Holiday has just started again and I'm quite glad to take a short break from school even though there will still be choir. I believe choir is beginning to see some light. Thanks to Yvonne, we have hope back again! :))
Well, in this short holiday, Pn Norlia seems to not let us go for a bit. Homeworks are flooding in more than ever not only in F5 but also in the other forms. Ms Lee said maybe its because the influence from other schools which are doing the exact thing too.*shrug* I just hope they will realize that we need the time to study and do revision.
Lost my Chemistry text book and my exercise. I don't know how it happened. At first, I didn't want to accept the fact that its lost but in the end I have to admit that it had been stolen. ='(.
Gotta be careful next time.

Here is my list-to-do things during the holiday!
- catch up with so left behind studies *hope i can!:(*
- choir
- piano!!!
- guitar
- learn how to use Photoshop (i need the patience!)
- practise pingpong (competition is coming! *freaking out*)
- movie marathon! (if i have the time!)
- find for nice restaurants
- spend more time with family
- add more cement in my foundation

So much to do but still its just a one week holiday!

2008-03-02T19:54:00.002+08:00

I am shaken

TRULY!!

MADLY!!

DEEPLY!!

The brain cell in me is dead!!

Both my hands are full of sweat!!

My hair is standing on its end!!

Permanent damage!!

I shall never ever touch 30 Days of Night again!

Never ever!!

*slam door shut*

P/S: Sorry for this post. I was just unable to control myself due to the gruesome images! =S . Will update next time!

Artsie!

2008-03-01T23:11:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was a 29th February.
Although it seems like some other days, this particular day will only come back after four years.
On that day, I learnt that art is in everything.
Instead, art IS everything.
Art of war, art of study, art of driving, art of food, art of anything at all!
Everyone in this world will surely have their own artistic stuff in them.
So, there is no reason to say "I don't have a drop of arts in me"..=)
Well, anyway, enjoyed the class I had yesterday.
Mr Liew is really a fun and passionate guy too.
Learnt a lot of things from him!
I'm really glad that God gave me such a great teacher!=D

Anyway, today had a great time enjoying crabs in a famous crab restaurant in Puchong.
They are really tasty!
Comes in different flavour and all AND that is called arts!Haha!
Here's the pictures I took of the dish!

Crabs with superb yummilicious cheeesse!

Crabs cooked with salted-egg except they are not that salty. Just alright.

Simply lips-smacking crabs and taufu!

Are you drooling now?=P

The Spikes on the Tree

2008-02-29T20:58:00.004+08:00

That bank manager with a glass. Yes, thats him. He looks real cool and calm in everything he does. However, there is one thing that makes him tumble everything of him down that is loneliness. It strikes right down his core that he is haunted with many nightmares day and night. He used to be a really bright kid and extremely famous in his school. In fact, he used to be everything everyone dreams of. After working in the bank and becoming a manager, he changed. Now, he has a porcupine and a fly. He always thinks of these two animals eventhough he knows they are animals and do not have feelings in them. Well, the porcupine and the fly in fact has feelings in them although they can't show them out. So, this bank manager cares and feeds the porcupine and the fly without being tired because now he has put all his hope on these two animals to find for butterflies next time. There is also this newspaper boy who always deliver newspaper at the front of his door. The bank manager is also close to him and love him too, but not as much as his love towards his animals. So comes the problem. The porcupine is always going round and round. He can't stop unless he curls himself up to form a tiny ball of pins. In his tiny ball, thats the place where he will enjoy himself the most and have time to think of the ones around him. However, thats also what the manager does not like about the porcupine. He says, "Porcupine!Don't curl yourself up and leave me alone standing here like a fool! People will think that I'm standing with a sharp pin ball!". So, the porcupine tries to curl himself only when he is not needed by the manager which is very tiring. Then, he thinks to himself, "Why can't my master have spikes like i have and curl up with me too so he will know how comfortable it is?" He sat down and cried silently wishing there is someone, a mature porcupine to advice him of what to do the best and the fly. The fly is no help either. Sometimes when he sees the porcupine crying, he will console him but else, when he is in a bad mood, he will just dump all his faeces onto the porcupine. So sometimes the porcupine will use one of his spikes to poke him and forget about it. The fly likes to fly around obviously.He likes to find out with his many eyes what is nice around him. However, after landing on countless contagious rubbish and all, he got a sickness which cannot be cured unless he can lick his own forehead. He can't though due to his short tongue. So every once in a while, the fly will go amok and fly around without caring anything at all. That adds to the porcupine's misery because when he does that, he will not have any reason to have the chance to try on his poking skill. So, the porcupine goes towards the newspaper boy whether he can poke on his newspapers. Same as what the manager said, the boy doesn't let him to and asks him to cut off his spikes and grow them out when he is off age. The porcupine is stunned and acted like he didn't hear what the boy had just said. It hurts him to his core because he is a porcupine! How can he ever pretend to be a porcupine without having spikes on his back? So, he ignored. The porcupine walks around and around looking for a nice spot to curl himself up. At last, he found the most comfortable spot right under a big tree.

He curls up.

Confusing Codes

2008-02-28T18:53:00.005+08:00

Thinking its time for me to change my hideous blog's skin that had been distorted for quite some time after my attempt to make it bright, I finally ended up with this classic skin. Actually it is not the one I wanted to change to but another beautiful turquoise colour skin with the title "Touch The Sky"! I had tried many attempts to upload it up but ended up getting confused over all of the many endless codes and rules. Its really confusing! So after some pressing of buttons, my whole old blog skin was gone. I don't know how that happened but I just cant seem to find a way to go back!

Thus, here is my new skin!=D

Hope its better than the previous one!

P/S : Will change it again to the turquoise colour skin i mentioned after I learn how to!

KAOG Care Event

2008-02-27T18:28:00.014+08:00

Finally the three-day exams are over!
Its just the starting of it actually.
The starting to all of the harder exams and homework flooding and etc!
I hope that I can be able to appreciate every single moment of it though!=)

Last Saturday was KAOG's Care Event.
We had some barbeque there and games.
Quite some fun there and i find it pretty encouraging!
I just feel that this is a point of starting for my youth in church *or rather me* where everyone will get even closer than we used to the last year.=)
Let there be unity!

Anyway, here are some pictures i took for remembrance. ;)

2008-02-25T15:35:00.002+08:00

Kak sold my Form 4 textbooks!!

So that guarantees my failing of my Sejarah test tomorrow.
Sigh..
Hope i can still remember the little facts about it and to take more marks in the form5 chapter!

Exam gone on quite well today although I did tembak a few questions.
I just hope that tomorrow will be better!*grin*

Anyway, I realise that I need milk!
More milk!
Eventhough it may seems that i don't really need milk but solid food,
still I want to have sufficient milk to fill the whole glass up to the brim.
That's only called satisfying!=D

2008-02-24T16:56:00.002+08:00

"Forgiving someone doesn't make them right; it makes you free"

This makes me realize, that i should forgive.
That's why now i forgive you again.
For He first forgive.

Sports Day 2008

2008-02-22T17:34:00.026+08:00

I find that I like this song 'Cai Hong' by Jay Chou.
Its simple yet unique in my point of view.
Well, won't be going to Jay's concert tomorrow.
Its quite a sad thing because his songs had been my everyday songs when i was smaller.*reminiscing the old times*
Anyway, will surely catch up with his next concert, ng!;)

This morning was my last Sports Day in school in my life.
Pretty mm se tak feeling creeping in me when thinking that its the last.
Anyway, really enjoyed myself today!
So, here are pictures of the last Sports Day.Trying to capture the hustle and bustle of Sports Day in my school.

Called the students in 3M to help me take this!thanks!

The making of the mouth-slurping punch fruit + NDC+ Sprite.

Qian Peng, also part of the crew.

The first few cups of christmas tree..hehe..

Seroja-Green house (my house for 11 years!!). The mascot is a ninja.

Cempaka-Blue house~this year's improvement.*esther looking blur*

One of the Powerpuff Girl characters. I think she is called Bubbles.

One of the characters in Sesame Street i think.
Really creative.

Mawar- Red house
This mascot is the Incredible which is really INCREDIBLE!
I like this mascot.=)
By the way, that's Michelle which makes the whole thing more incredible!

"Im strong and incredible!"

I forgot to take yellow house's picture!!Sorry..well, they are DiGis..

chopking instead of poking

Me and Ng, the choppicker.

Esther-me-ng-eunice *unity of colours*

CLEARANCE OF STOCK

Poh Kim

&

Esther

dot..dot..dot..

then,

~Partners in Crime~ nyek nyek nyek..>)

this dog smelt the scene of crime, that's why he bit my stinking sock!

SO, here's the Convent Sports Day of 2008!
i'll miss today in the future! In fact, i'm already missing today!

adios!

Gushing of the light

2008-02-21T09:02:00.004+08:00

Catching up!

I guess that's one of the words to describe what i should really do this year..
Not only catching up with homeworks and studies, but also my dreams and friends..
It seems like the world around me has really been rushing forward without a glance behind while im still standing with both my hands and eyes on the camera without knowing anything.
I feel so left behind. =(

The last day of Chinese New Year in Tien Pao's house.
.Camera is in stroke.*sobsob*

K.C.A.B.

2008-02-19T18:52:00.003+08:00

Im officially BACK, blog!
Just realised that my internet connection at my house is accessible..^^
At last!!
Well, im practically soo left behind here now!
Though i don't know whether its a good thing for my internet to come back right one week before exam, im gonna make use of the wonders of internet!!
Guess I'll try to catch up as much as possible!!

Till here then for today!
Ciaoz!

+humility+

2008-01-20T13:29:00.000+08:00

Pretty much to catch up now!
Well, don't think I'm gonna write everything out but all I can say is God is great!
Though I am really really a bad kid, He still reach out His hands to guide me.
Thanks to God!=D

By the way, this will be my last post of the month.
I'm gonna take my computer to my new house.
Hope I can apply for internet as soon as possible!
So till here!

the b-e-a-utiful storm

2008-01-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

Back to home! Back to the world of internet! And back to jot down all the memories in this lil blog!
Well, just wanna update about my last week which was hectic yet fun!
Sometimes I just couldn't understand why I love being busy!=D
Anyway, last Saturday and Sunday, I was in Genting with my grandma, aunt and her family for the NASA dinner.
Pretty fun although my dad's car spoilt during the journey and I gotta wait with my dad for 3 hours..
The day before that, my dog got an accident.
It was pretty bad but she got over it without any major injuries.
On Friday too, i received something which seems small to others yet it means a lot to me and I really thank God for that.
He made my life beautiful!
So, its already the middle of January!
I learned a lot of things this year although it is just the beginning.
Anticipating for the rest of the years!

Till here!

Courage

2008-01-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

Challenges and trials are coming one by one as expected like every other years in school..
Though its only been the second day of school, I can just know that 2008 is a really tough year for me..
I'm just glad that this time, its a little different..
God is giving me comfort this time..
He can really work and do miracle in an unexpected way and time..
And in the same time giving me the strength to continue my life in this tough world..
Well, I was just anticipating for the school to reopen because I just know that this year is going to be a different year..

Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go
[Joshua 1:9]

2 0 0 8

2008-01-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

Its a new year and school is going to start soon!!
I can't wait for it though I know there'll be a lot of challenges once its opened.
Well, I hope that this year 2008, i can be able to build a strong foundation.
The strength in doing it, only God can provide.

the coolness of the light

2007-12-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

Had been staying at my house for some days without going anywhere except around my neighbourhood and my old house. Sometimes its pretty relaxing to have that silence peace around me, but sometimes it can be too much of the feeling of being trapped in the same place while looking at people going in and out freely. Maybe its because I had been busy this almost two months, travelling up and down non-stop. Guess this sudden emptiness of travelling is good to force some brakes in myself. I have to settle myself down before the school begins and get myself calm and ready for anything that will come by.

During this period of time, I had grabbed a book that I had bought using my PMR money (cziplee). That is my first firsthand novel book I had bought by myself. The title is The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards.I was busy when I bought this so had only managed to read half of the story. Well, after reading the story once again, I find this story pretty unique. This whole story is mainly about a father, who was a doctor, had given out his newborn daughter who had Down's syndrome, to his nurse, asking her to bring his daughter to an institute where all the other children had the same case as his daughter. Then, he lied to his wife saying that she died. It was 1965. Well, he thought that he had taken control of everything, it turned out that it was a pretty big mistake. Anyway, the nurse did not send his daughter there because she just couldn't after looking at the shabbiness of the place. Instead, she brought along her to another place and raised her herself. As the doctor thought that he had spared his wife and his son, who was the baby girl's twin, the sadness of knowing that their daughter had Down's syndrome, it turned out that his family were not the same anymore after everyone thought that the baby girl died. Everyone was really sad and the father was put in dilemma. Then, the family slowly falls apart, day by day, and drifted further and further. Well, at the end, after like 20+ years, the baby girl didn't die as predicted at the age of 12. She survived, under the care of the nurse. After the father passed away from a sudden heart attack while jogging, the nurse then told the mother all the stories.

I was just thinking that, sometimes one may think that everything is in control, thinking that one's perspective of view is always correct, while actually its not at all. Really, its not at all. If you don't know, then explore and experience it first without ruining others who had not even stepped a foot out. Its like a rotten durian you know. No yellow flesh inside but brown and black. EEWwwwww..
Ah, had been sitting on the floor typing all of this. I guess I had better go and pack more stuffs. So, if I can't make it back again here on time, I would like to say

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!

and

OLYMPIC is COMING!!

bye~ =)

memoria

2007-12-24T11:14:00.000+08:00

It was my greatgrandfather's 100th birthday last Saturday.
I was in Penang for 3 days to celebrate his birthday.

My greatgranpa..
Pretty healthy still..

Well, anyway, the reason why i have been faithful in updating my blog is because i don't want any memories to be forgotten just like that.
Every events, every precious events, I will try to write them down in this little journal here.
Hope that all the memories will be preserved this way.

I'm going to shift to my new house today.
Kinda sad to leave my old house after staying for about 14 years.
It's like my Kampung Kota to me.
Well, it'll just be left as memories now..
All the things that happened here..
Whether good or bad..
Will just be left

as memories...

MUAR to HOPE

2007-12-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I just came back from Muar, Johor after a one night stay.
Went to some places there, so i'll just let the pictures speak.

Yes! We feed the monkeys in some orchard.
Really a whole bunch of monkeys around 30-40.

Some of the monkeys are pretty aggressive too especially the males...They just snatch your bag of nuts when you are too low or aren't looking.

A mummy monkey and its kid...Thin chance of survival this one...Really bad in the skill of taking food from the visitors... Hope they survive tho..hehehe..=P

We are off to the Muara! Us, beside of Sg. Muar and the sea...nice view there...=)

So thats my short trip in Muar.
Anyway, today, I went to the Celebration of Hope.
Really had fun there and I'm really happy that i went despite of my health condition at that time.
I just was reminded that LOVE is the biggest thing in this world and without LOVE, we will not be able to live happily or to see the truth in anything on this Earth!
In another message, if you want to see and understand things, open up your heart instead of closing it and clear off any prejudice you had in anyone or anything. I mean REALLY REALLY clear off! The light will definitely flood into you and you'll definitely feel better.

Choose LOVE instead of HATE!=)

I'll be updating on Monday, if i can.
So see ya!;D

Two days ticked off~

2007-12-18T01:19:00.000+08:00

It seems like the automatic gear in my brain has been stuck quite badly especially today..
Guess the speed is too fast until it got stuck somewhere and jam the whole system of my brain..
Have to blame the melatonin again..i don't know why they are staying longer, this time with some different breed..=S
Well anyway, here I am to update about my past few days with my cousins, Meyven and Ah Boy, and aunt..

Watching my bro ther in some operation..er..sort of..

With them in Metropoint, and I saw my church members with the kids carolling there!

Then, i found out there was a BOOK sale at the top floor!AND it was the LAST day of it!So grabbed a few books from there..hope they are not bad...=)

Next day, which is on Monday, went to Sunway for some shopping..Had a really NICE and SUperlicious nasi lemak with rendang chicken there...

While enjoying the mouth watering nasi rendang, my sort-of-stuck brain and blurry eye chose not to see the obvious danger that was lying ahead among the rice...
Tossing about the little black thing with my fork and spoon around my plate, i thought it was just some skin of a nut, but it turned out to be a small cockroach!
Glad i didn't eat it though..=S

How pretty eh the cockroach?

At night, we went to Haji Samuri satay to have some satay..its been a long time since i last ate satay!=)

I'll be in Muar on Tuesday and Wednesday!So till here then! Bye!=)

JUngle Walk

2007-12-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

I climbed a MOUNTAIN today!

Okay, its not a mountain lar but a hill, but well, its still pretty challenging..

This hill is called Bukit Tun San if i'm not mistaken and it is situated in Damansara.
Organised by Uncle Sunny's company, we got invited to join in this jungle walk..=)

Evelyne, Eunice and me in the car on the way to the place...

The place when we first arrived

Heng, Eugene, Eunice, Wyekik,
Weiken
(waiting for the walk to start)

On the way to the top!

And we are at the top!WOhoo!!!How dirty and sweaty are we..

Having some really nice Ais Kacang after the climb!How relaxing was it!I was just hoping for a plate of laksa from Ah Beng to go together with that..yummy!

Almost all of the people came down from the hill..

Eugene, a really active kid, taking his "dare"..

The LAMB for dinner!!!hidden by this chef...><...

Well, I really had a great time today.
Hope that we can do something like this in the future!=)

p/s:the pictures are being shrunk just to make it easier to be viewed.cheers!

-toddle off to sleep-

Durian Head!

2007-12-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today, I realised fully of some things in this world..

Things that I only heard of from other people or rather out of my consciousness which is now facing right straight in front of me..

Well, its really unpredictable, some things in this world..

Lets say, a durian!
You can first see it as thorny, naughty, hurting and it smells to some certain people! But when you open it, the yellow colour of the durian flesh will shine upon your face and leave you alone feeling surprise and awed by its goodness...
Yeah, the effect is something like that but more than that... I hope that I can find and see more effect like this in life!=)

Nah!

DURIAN FOR YOU!!

chEERS!

FUSION Camp!

2007-12-12T21:05:00.001+08:00

Here I am ready to update about the camp i went last Saturday after the LOONG sleep and rest!
I know I'm supposed to update about the Beijing trip and also some events that happened last week.
But well, just wait okay?=)

Okay, Fusion Camp!
Its a 4 days 3 nights camp held in STM Seremban.
I didn't expect it to be that splendid but it actually turned out to be not bad..
I simply enjoyed myself except for the food lar..*the last day of lunch was not bad tho. got some spices there =P*

Well, in this camp, there are 5 groups altogether which is Angkooz, H.O.T., Funky 14, Bombastic and Renovatio.
I was in Angkooz.=)
Although there were some confusion, i really enjoyed myself with my team mates. =))

By the way, in this camp, of all the games i gone through, the Treasure Hunt which was called Owl Hunt was the best Treasure Hunt game i had ever went to before.
It was simply amazing and brain-cracking!
AND it was held at 12 MIDNIGHT with only one candle and one handphone light to light our way around for the clues! *add more points*
Amazing..=)

Well, during this camp too, this word 'COURAGE' is placed into my heart.
I am actually a timid girl.
If there is any risk in taking any decision or any action, I will just give up in doing it and sit back behind wasting my life.
It's just the fear of challenging myself and making decisions until it affects my life with God.
Imagining myself like a runaway ugly pot fearing the hand of the Maker who is trying to shape me to a better pot.=S
I simply don't want that to happen.
He told me to place all the fear in Him and to stop thinking of so many things that will end up in stopping me to do what i should do in anything. =) .I'll really have to exercise on that!

In conclusion, I'm just so glad that i went to the camp.=)

Here are some pictures i took during the camp.
Glad that I remembered my camera was with me in the camp!

My group discussing about somethings

The opening of the Tribe Event

Pastor Caleb Chan, a funny but great speaker.

Sandy in the sketch - trying to counsel the bad guys Eve, my group mate, in sketch - giving birth

Jeshuren, the son , Jason and David as the CC companions.

Ang, my leader, acting dead as the father.
Our theme is Father's Love.

The BIGGEST hibiscus plant i had ever seen with MANY hibiscus flowers too!How pretty!

Adeline, me and Esther...last day!!I didn't take pictures during all the games..how wasted right?=(...priceless memories to be preserved..

Me and Maggie, after endless pictures we took, only she willfully do the Angkooz sign..aha..

The group picture, Angkooz..
Oh my gosh!What was Bryan doing there???hahaha!

The supposely funny faces there...but it turned out weird!haha...!!

The Angkooz sign.......er....i think........

The proper Angkooz sign....and Eve with an Ultraman sign..haha!

Anyway, I hope that the Angkooz fighting fish will survive under the care of Jeshuren! Hope it can survive long!=)

Till here then, I'm off for Die Hard 1.0!

2007-12-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

Blog,

I don't know why, right at this point of time, I simply can't stop but to get quicky when reading or hearing this word...

Agent 47!

I'm influenced!

-walk off-

WAIT!!The Horse-Man just gave me this video!
And its so amazing!
"Yeah!Thats a WOW!"

*nice magic trick!*
*Somehow, I noticed that he is somehow like popping with this right hand..ahaha*
ENJOY!

and THIS!!!

AMAZING!

A BIg WOW!

Woof! Woof!

2007-12-03T17:36:00.001+08:00

As I was just waiting for my page to load in my computer, i called out my dog just for the sake of disturbing her from her sleep.

Of course she did not move or in fact maybe she just did not hear me..

As I looked at her stomach rising up and down with her legs kicking at times, I start to wonder

"Does dog dream?"

According to a professor, YES!

Dogs do dream!

In fact, all animals dream!

So, what do they dream of?

Bones? Balls? It's lover? Big kennel? Me??

No one knew for certain that animals dreamed the way we do, which can involve replaying events or at least components of events that occurred while we were awake," said Matthew Wilson of MIT's Center for Learning and Memory. "We looked at the firing patterns of a collection of individual cells to determine the content of rats' dreams. We know that they are in fact dreaming and their dreams are connected to actual experiences."

Okay, so the examples above are accepted!

Well, then another thought came by.

Does dog have nightmares?

And this is what i found..

Abused animals have post traumatic stress just like humans. Well cared for & loved animals (my dog) can still have nightmares too, but theirs are different from abused animals. For instance , a cared for dog may be distressed from a dream of not getting a daily treat or feelings of neglect if they think another animal is getting favored over them. All animals have dreams of fighting enemies,or chasing prey

I wonder if my dog dreams the same kind of nightmare...

If only I can talk in dog's language..

If only...

My dog (sorry for the blur image because i can't find for my digital camera)

Happy 100th Postday Blog!

2007-11-30T14:21:00.000+08:00

I'm BACK from Beijing!!

And I can say that this wonderful trip is amazing!!

I love the place, the people there and also the people who were in that trip!!

I will definitely not forget all the memories there!

Anyway, I will update about the Beijing trip later..
Here are two videos I found in Youtube and they are funny!!*funny only to those who played Final fantasy and also The Sims!*

Imagine you see 7 people in the jungle like this while trekking!LOL!

Exactly like The Sims!Except the dirty part a bit lar..

ENJOY!

YahhOOOOO!!

2007-11-21T10:25:00.000+08:00

Run

Run

Run

*pant*

*pant*

*pant*

*look up*

*gulp gulp gulp*

chhiinngg!

*smile gladly*

---------------------------------------------------------------

At last my connection works!
Had been trying to connect for so long!Phew!

Anyway, on Thursday, I'll be flying off to Beijing with my family and relatives for 8 days!
Maybe my brain is a bit slow in digesting facts or it is just originally slow, I only start to receive the fact that I'm going there yesterday!
I didn't even countdown till the day I'm going there..
It's like being woken up from a deep sleep in a comfortable sauna.
But well, now I'm quite excited about it!=D

After that, it'll be the time to change the den!

and then FUSION CAMP!!!!

This is not a bad holiday for me compared to last year where every moment ticks by so slowly!

I want to talk more here but i can't incase this connection is suddenly cut off!

So, just want to say farewell here and have a good time!=D
Ciaoz!

2007-11-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

Brokenness..
Yeah, it broke again..
Prejudice..
Yeah, it happens again..
Tearing..
Yeah, it is torn again..
Judging eyes..
Yeah, they scanned again..
Revenge..
Yes, it comes again, this time with more brutality..

i wonder when will it stop?

Eyebrows raised with tired eyes..
while the knife is pierced in again..
Hurt
Alone in this cliff..

Just a tiny step..
And a little force..
Towards the back
From the cliff

i need You again..

And i agree, i am bad..

+shortie tortie updatie+

2007-11-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

i love the butterflies up there..=)

It's been a long time since i last update this blog..
Okay, just a short update here!

It is holiday now! PURE holiday!
Well, to me, this Nov and Dec holiday is too short for my liking.
Maybe it's because last year i had 3 months holiday altogether and this one and a half month holiday sounded too short!

But, these two weeks, i had really enjoyed myself.
I relaxed, bowling-ed, read, watched movies, visited house, church-ed, badminton-ed, shopped, spent time with friends, operated the frog's stomach, thought, planned, fellowshipped, celebrated, gathered, readjusted, recovered, observed, discovered, made bookmark, scrabbled etc..
Really enjoyed these kind of non-groaning season because there is no exams and homeworks!

Hope that you out there are enjoying your holidays too!=)
Till here then, bye!

p/s : Maybe i'll update again in the beginning of December...

Children Graduation Day~

2007-11-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

These few days had been some of my down time..
But now one thing i know is that God lift me up AGAIN!=)
I'm really grateful!

Anyway, today there was a Children Graduation Day for the Sonshine Kids Kindergarden in my church. It was my first time attending one after my own graduation from Holy Family kindergarden..thats long huh..haha
I almost couldn't attend this graduation day because i was sick in the morning..
But well, i went for it at last and i never regretted..

When i reached there, i was like wow!
The place was full of screamings and shoutings...but no crying yet..haha
I was really excited in the same time as well as all the kids there!=)
Okay, i'll just let the pictures to do the talking!
Hope the computer didn't disconnect by itself again!!

The kids scene one when i arrived.

They are pretty good!Seated on their own labelled chair with their names on top.

The Prince in the fashion show! i love his hair!

And the Princess!!

See how the kids are paying attention towards the camera!They LOVE the camera and to pose too!

5th year kids changing to their kadazan shirt

Behind the scene in preparation for the opening

Kit Thong!Really adorable!

Stephen Ng in kadazan suit.

These two kids are funny!

The dance on the "Dui Mian De Ni Hai"..Its funny!

The left girl is called Yi Thong!lolx..almost like my name eh? anyway, the girl on the right is the Student of The Year 2007.

Behind of the scene, i was wondering why all of a sudden, the girls are shaking their bottom..haha..then only i know why..

This boy's name is Yin Jay and he is really cute! He really looks like one of my friends in kindergarden whom I met in kindergarden!

One of the costume of leopard..haha

The crab kid and Adam!Cute!

Just some of the pictures i took..can't possibly upload them all!

I really had fun today.
It seems like today through this graduation day, God is reminding me to be like a child again, coming up to Him in whatever things in my life.=)

Notes of Life

2007-11-01T17:08:00.000+08:00

Teenage life is indeed really hard..
Sometimes it may bring many tears, disappointment as well as anger and hatred..
Peer pressure is mostly the cause of all of these and also the disappointment that arise when people disappoint you or you yourself and even the way things work in life..

While I was playing the piano..
I reflected back all of my pasts, the present and also the things i did..
All of a sudden, i suddenly just felt really tired and i couldn't go on any longer...
Not in this teenage life where it is so full of uncertainty and disappointments..
It just felt like my heart was too heavy and my throat was choking myself..

Then, I closed my eyes while still playing the piano..
Suddenly, it just dawned on me that life is just like a blind-folded person playing the piano..
Pressing onto each note at the keys, although you don't know what you are pressing but with faith, to produce a beautiful song..
Isn't just life like this?
We would not know what will happen next and we can't see it..
But if we continue to have faith and trust in God, we'll be able to "produce a beautiful song" too..
If the right hand which played the melody pressed a wrong note..the left hand will be able to cover up the mistake by its chord..
That is something like you pressed the wrong note but God lift you up again..haha

Anyway, i'm not too sure whether this is a good illustration as it may jump here and there, but well, just a sudden thought i would like to share.

Hope that we can be able to press on the notes of our life with faith and let God to guide us in whatever things or decisions and even feelings during our journey here..=)

Majesty Here I Am

2007-10-30T18:21:00.001+08:00

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so I'm free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I stand humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

This song really speaks right through in my heart.
He still choose to forgive so that we can be able to forgive and to be freed from this un-forgiveness.
Yeah, it is true that forgiving someone doesn't mean that they are right or wrong, it makes you free!
Its really totally impossible to forgive someone especially a person who had given you so much hatred and pain.

Really, without God's grace, we can't do it.

~Melancholy Melatonin~

2007-10-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

Quote from EST text book "A person's sleep-wake cycle is a complex process that scientists have not fully understood. What is known, however, is that it is greatly influenced by a hormone called melatonin. Produced by the pea-size pineal gland in the brain, melatonin helps the body to regulate its sleep-wake cycle. A high level of melatonin tells the body that it is time to sleep, and a low level tells the body that it is time to wake up."

I guess the pea-size pineal gland in my brain has totally malfunctioned when it detects the aroma of exam papers. Deeply soaking in a large amount of this melatonin hormone, i really "cannot" explain why I couldn't concentrate on the exam paper!
Or maybe teachers had sprayed something on the exam papers which will activate the pea-size pineal gland in the brain to ensure us students had already taken a large dose of caffeine? Yeah!! It must be because I really couldn't explain why and i did not gulp a single drop of coffee!

Human's sleep-wake cycle is indeed complex! A person that has been sleeping for so long can still be sleepy during exam! I wonder what is happening to this particular complex process. Its no wonder scientists cannot explain totally how it works. Brains, ya know.=P

Anyway, the Chemistry exam today is by far the worst one of all. Paper 2 and 1 which i crapped and tembaked until my bullets all got daunty all the way till i was asleep. Imagine.. Here is a poem i would like to dedicate to my late Chemistry..

Chemistry, oh, chemistry,
Long jump with her close friend, biology,
Not wanting to be left without the logy,
So Physics follow along towards the lorry.

Carrying sulphur, chloride, mercury
Not forgetting this huge electrochemistry
The lorry swerves towards the loji
Pouring out all this jewelry

Chemistry cry and cry mightily
Until the Magnesium burns vigorously
Holding on to what is left innerly
So Mr.Zero will not slap her accidentally.

Okay, okay..i know this is lame!Haha!But really, now i would even be happy if my Chemistry will not have to meet Mr.Zero! I still remember the first and also last time i failed a subject. It was my Moral when i was in my Form 1. Just only managed to scrape 12 marks for it. I just hope that that will be the last time i fail my subject though i'm not so sure now.

Hope tomorrow i can find Physics 3 and 1 alive. Hope they did not follow the footsteps of all their little friends!

Physics, oh Physics..Spare me some velocities!

p/s : I think i will continue using back this old blog instead of the new one. I don't think I'll have the time to manage the other one and also thanks to all the warnings about xanga from someone, I'll just revert back to this old blog for less hassle..Hehe..

Till here and see you all again tomorrow.....that is if im still alive...

2007-10-09T16:14:00.000+08:00

.i am going to break away from the internet world for 2 weeks.

.its just the urgency of it.

.not because i have to study or anything but it's just the urgency of the purpose.

so see you all after that period of time!

God bless!

Yours truly,
yeethong

†crumbs†

2007-10-07T13:34:00.000+08:00

Hey, yesterday, 6 October was my birthday!
And i really enjoyed myself..
Thank you eeeeeeeeeveeeeeerrrrryyyone for ALL the wishes and present!
Thanks mum, dad, and bro for the slurpy cake and also the scrumptious meal!;)
I owe you all one..!=)

It has been another year..
and here i am officially sixteen..
I am deeply grateful for having everyone and also Jesus..
Although had been sitting on a reaaally rocky roller coaster throughout the year and also the past years, i am really grateful that He picked me up each time my roller coaster fell tooo way down till i couldn't breathe at all!
All the experiences i had with Him is indeed wonderful and i really thank Him for that..
Thanks for loving me, a person who undeserves SO much of Your love..

A new year is coming up for me!
I am excited for it because i know that this year will be a year full of surprises!
I am excited to see people(us) rise up and to be united from all churches..
Really looking forward to the Fusion camp this year..
I hope that after that camp, we will not fall back away but to step forward with selfless faith!
Let this camp not to be just a camp to have all the fun with games, musics etc, but to let it be a life-changing camp!=D
Let us to hold each other hands and fellowship together..

Reunite!

Don't give up in praying!Don't give up!

Eventhough it may seems useless and tend to get lazy repeating the same old unanswered prayer again and again..BUT..don't ever ever give up!

Lets have the faith like this Canaanite woman from Matthew 15.

She did not give up crying out for Jesus even though Jesus did not answer her at first.
She still continue and persistently called out to Him with faith!

Jesus actually has the right not to answer her you know, because He said He is just sent for the lost sheep of Israel.
However, He is great.
Because of her never endless faith, her daughter was healed.

So, here sometimes we prayed for something really long and that it seems like God is not answering, just continue to have the faith that He will.

And the next part here where this woman said,
"but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters' table."

She humbled herself as a dog which on that time, dog is something really low class.
She was so desperate to even see a "crumb" of His presence.
"Just a little bit..a little bit.."
Her faith is so great ..yet, she could have fallen away when Jesus did not answer her.
She humbled herself.

Well, she was very close but not that close enough.
So she continue to cry out.
At last, Jesus replied saying that
"Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted"!

When things just don't seem to work out anymore..
DOn't stop!
Don't stop in seeking Him first...

Believe that He will answer your humble prayers..
And also that He is currently painting a b..e...a...utiful picture on the other side..!=D

†study-not†

2007-10-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Warning : If you want to score the end-of-year exam with great flying colours, or even are enjoying the mood to study now, please do not read this post for this post might discourage u to flunk your exam together with the rest who had gotten my virus.

A "g...r....e.....at" start of the first day of exam today!

My eyes were barely opened throughout ALL the BM and BI exams moment!

I even felt lazy to answer the BM questions..-.-""..*that's SO not me during exam!=S*
And slept one hour during BI...

When i heard all the piercing screaming and shout of joy from all the form 3s, i so felt like jumping out from the exam room or being back again when i was in form 3..=S..

I know, just some dreams there when one's mind was feeling extremely sleepy with no reason.. Maybe it's the smell of the paper that made me sleepy?

Or maybe it's the scene where all heads were bow down towards the table while flying off their hands trying to answer the "sleeping pill" questions in time that made me so?

I can say that my plan to "confidently step into the examination class showing my big smile on my face" and "vomiting out all the informations onto the blank piece of paper coolly" will not be a success...

I had practically given up hope on this exam!
I don't even know what subject i should start to study because there are just too many to!
Well, i don't want to really give up yet but still i know it's almost near to the word "give up".. Even my mum is cool with it..haha

Anyway, today after school, suddenly this great thought to go MV and enjoy sprang out.
Not me, but its from mum!
So me, mum, bro and Ridun went there..
Watched a movie, bought a sneaker and some tees, ate Kim Gary's and loitered around the mall..

Ahh..what an enjoyment....

It just so seem like it IS already after exam!